02-02-2015, 09:14 PM
So with only about 2 days left in this stage I thought it would be good to give a summary. One thing I know for certain is that this stage was working on a lot of things. I could tell by how I felt and also by how many dreams I had. For comparison, during AM6 I would typically have only 2 or 3 dreams per stage with the exception of Stage 5 (More on that later). During this stage I've had a total of 6 dreams so far (Including the two I had last night). Another reason I find this interesting is because I've constantly compared this stage to stage 5 of AM6, which also is the AM6 stage that gave me the most dreams.
As for what happened last night, I essentially had two Lara Croft type dreams. The first dream is kinda of fuzzy but I remember it was pretty much like the second dream I had. The second dream pretty much had me as Lara croft (the most recent incarnation) and I was pretty much fighting against waves of the Zealots you face off in the 2013 video game (At first!). I have the high ground and am fighting against the waves with a bow and arrow in a mountainous, blizzard region. At first its just waves of zealots but then it becomes Zealots and zombified zealots. I do a good job holding them off but slowly they start getting closer until they start climbing up the platform i'm on. I don't actually see myself die but before I wake up I just had this feeling of impending doom. From what I was able to look up a lot of the times being a woman in a dream symbolizes your feminine aspects and a bow and arrow represents a combination of Masculine and Feminine energies. I wonder if it just means that certain Feminine traits that I have will (or have already) be destroyed. I find the tomb raider theme interesting as well because the whole point of that game was to tell how she went from a very low confidant/self esteem woman to the high confidant bad@ss that she is in the later games.
I will get to the list of changes now, which are numerous and mostly internal. If I had to put this stage into as few words as possible, I would say it would be : "I AM THE KING AND I DESERVE TO RULE!".
Internal changes
- Started felling even more like a High value/High Status male.
- My Standards for women have gone "VERY" high up. Its gotten to the point where 90% of the women I run into I practically disqualify right off the bat. For example, out of all my classes I can only think of one girl I would be slightly interested in and that's only because she passed the "looks" hurdle. Personality, character, and intelligence are separate hurdles all together.
- In general I find most people ( Especially at my college) to be very boring. They seem to just be in this hamster wheel of school, work, eat, and sleep. Even when some of them open their mouths its like all I hear is "Sheeple" talk. Its like they don't have any real thoughts or ideas of their own.
- My outlook of the future and my goals are totally positive with pretty much no hint of negativity.
- I believe I can have any woman I want. The question is "Do I just want any women though?
- My tolerance for Beta behavior has reached breaking point where if I see it, even just in body language, my automatic reaction is to recoil in disgust.
- Along similar lines, its like i'm only interested in Alpha Female type women now. I could see a 9\10 female but as soon as she does something really beta (or very unintelligent) I automatically get turned off.
- Getting to a point where I feel like I can accurately tell what some people are going to do before they do it (Maybe reading body language???).
External Changes
- I've been running into people I know more frequently.
- Had girls at my last job try to talk to me more and ask me the same questions over and over (which got very irritating).
- As most of you know I had a 8/10 Red head come on strong to me on my last day at my old job. Didn't pursue anything afterwards because she was already seeing someone, and she is 21 and STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL???
- One very important thing that I forgot to mention numerous times and that I found similar to Afzlalg's journal. He mentioned before about how his muscles seemed to grow faster or better. I remember looking in the mirror and being shocked because it looked like my muscles had gotten bigger. I know the difference between viewing myself differently and actually seeing physical change. The weird thing is that I hadn't really changed anything diet wise or excise wise (not currently working out) to account for this change. I had read a study once where they found that people who only did hypnosis and visualization were able to make muscle gains. I wonder if the sub is somehow doing the same indirectly.
Also, Wanted to mention something else that I've mentioned a couple a times already in other posts. After talking to a forum member, I'm back to debating whether I'm going to do a couple of weeks of the 5G Attract your perfect Sexual lover in between this sub and SM 3.0. I'm actually leaning towards doing it now because of a few reasons. (1) Just like WM journals, there are very few AYP journals (finished ones at that). I feel like doing one would help people make a informed decision on whether they want to do a AYP. (2) There is still a small chance that I will be staying in my current area so that might make it worthwhile. Along with I'm not even sure if I did move if she would appear before I did so. Thats just a assumption on my part based on how well I react to 5G subs. (3) Similar to what I said above, most of the women I'm interacting with just don't measure to my new standards anymore. Most of them just really bore me. Finally (4) I'm really curious to see how the sex would be like. I remember reading a post by Shannon about how the lover he manifested ,he still thinks about from time to time because she was so good. Anyone's ideas or opinion's are very much welcome. Would like to get different views on AYP's.
To end with I feel like I should say something that has been on my mind very much lately even though I'm only about to reach the half-way point. This also kinda of ran into my considerations for a AYP. As many of you know, if you read the Very successful WM/SM journals you'll fine a common theme to how they end. Usually the person who ran it figures out that in the end that ,even though they are getting all these women, this isn't what they wanted in the end. Towards the last few weeks of this Stage I've already started to feel that way and I don't think its resistance (because I plan on completing). I think its because whatever was in this stage killed whatever neediness I had left over from AM6. I'v put on this "empire building first, getting women second" type mentality (which overall is a better mentality to have in the long run). Just thought I should mention this so people aren't surprised when I get to the end and say something similar. I have no doubt at the moment that I will get results but I'm wondering if at the end will it really be all its cracked up to be?
As for what happened last night, I essentially had two Lara Croft type dreams. The first dream is kinda of fuzzy but I remember it was pretty much like the second dream I had. The second dream pretty much had me as Lara croft (the most recent incarnation) and I was pretty much fighting against waves of the Zealots you face off in the 2013 video game (At first!). I have the high ground and am fighting against the waves with a bow and arrow in a mountainous, blizzard region. At first its just waves of zealots but then it becomes Zealots and zombified zealots. I do a good job holding them off but slowly they start getting closer until they start climbing up the platform i'm on. I don't actually see myself die but before I wake up I just had this feeling of impending doom. From what I was able to look up a lot of the times being a woman in a dream symbolizes your feminine aspects and a bow and arrow represents a combination of Masculine and Feminine energies. I wonder if it just means that certain Feminine traits that I have will (or have already) be destroyed. I find the tomb raider theme interesting as well because the whole point of that game was to tell how she went from a very low confidant/self esteem woman to the high confidant bad@ss that she is in the later games.
I will get to the list of changes now, which are numerous and mostly internal. If I had to put this stage into as few words as possible, I would say it would be : "I AM THE KING AND I DESERVE TO RULE!".
Internal changes
- Started felling even more like a High value/High Status male.
- My Standards for women have gone "VERY" high up. Its gotten to the point where 90% of the women I run into I practically disqualify right off the bat. For example, out of all my classes I can only think of one girl I would be slightly interested in and that's only because she passed the "looks" hurdle. Personality, character, and intelligence are separate hurdles all together.
- In general I find most people ( Especially at my college) to be very boring. They seem to just be in this hamster wheel of school, work, eat, and sleep. Even when some of them open their mouths its like all I hear is "Sheeple" talk. Its like they don't have any real thoughts or ideas of their own.
- My outlook of the future and my goals are totally positive with pretty much no hint of negativity.
- I believe I can have any woman I want. The question is "Do I just want any women though?
- My tolerance for Beta behavior has reached breaking point where if I see it, even just in body language, my automatic reaction is to recoil in disgust.
- Along similar lines, its like i'm only interested in Alpha Female type women now. I could see a 9\10 female but as soon as she does something really beta (or very unintelligent) I automatically get turned off.
- Getting to a point where I feel like I can accurately tell what some people are going to do before they do it (Maybe reading body language???).
External Changes
- I've been running into people I know more frequently.
- Had girls at my last job try to talk to me more and ask me the same questions over and over (which got very irritating).
- As most of you know I had a 8/10 Red head come on strong to me on my last day at my old job. Didn't pursue anything afterwards because she was already seeing someone, and she is 21 and STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL???
- One very important thing that I forgot to mention numerous times and that I found similar to Afzlalg's journal. He mentioned before about how his muscles seemed to grow faster or better. I remember looking in the mirror and being shocked because it looked like my muscles had gotten bigger. I know the difference between viewing myself differently and actually seeing physical change. The weird thing is that I hadn't really changed anything diet wise or excise wise (not currently working out) to account for this change. I had read a study once where they found that people who only did hypnosis and visualization were able to make muscle gains. I wonder if the sub is somehow doing the same indirectly.
Also, Wanted to mention something else that I've mentioned a couple a times already in other posts. After talking to a forum member, I'm back to debating whether I'm going to do a couple of weeks of the 5G Attract your perfect Sexual lover in between this sub and SM 3.0. I'm actually leaning towards doing it now because of a few reasons. (1) Just like WM journals, there are very few AYP journals (finished ones at that). I feel like doing one would help people make a informed decision on whether they want to do a AYP. (2) There is still a small chance that I will be staying in my current area so that might make it worthwhile. Along with I'm not even sure if I did move if she would appear before I did so. Thats just a assumption on my part based on how well I react to 5G subs. (3) Similar to what I said above, most of the women I'm interacting with just don't measure to my new standards anymore. Most of them just really bore me. Finally (4) I'm really curious to see how the sex would be like. I remember reading a post by Shannon about how the lover he manifested ,he still thinks about from time to time because she was so good. Anyone's ideas or opinion's are very much welcome. Would like to get different views on AYP's.
To end with I feel like I should say something that has been on my mind very much lately even though I'm only about to reach the half-way point. This also kinda of ran into my considerations for a AYP. As many of you know, if you read the Very successful WM/SM journals you'll fine a common theme to how they end. Usually the person who ran it figures out that in the end that ,even though they are getting all these women, this isn't what they wanted in the end. Towards the last few weeks of this Stage I've already started to feel that way and I don't think its resistance (because I plan on completing). I think its because whatever was in this stage killed whatever neediness I had left over from AM6. I'v put on this "empire building first, getting women second" type mentality (which overall is a better mentality to have in the long run). Just thought I should mention this so people aren't surprised when I get to the end and say something similar. I have no doubt at the moment that I will get results but I'm wondering if at the end will it really be all its cracked up to be?
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche