12-26-2014, 06:09 AM
Stage 1, Day 24
Only have about a week left in this stage so I thought I would give a update. Also, I just woke up from having my first nightmare while on a sub, which I will get into later, and can't really sleep right now.
After reading Enoch's WM 2.0 testimonial I decided to take his advice and read up on some PUA materials since he said in later stages that he was able to initially attract a lot of women but wouldn't be able keep the attraction because he wouldn't know how to proceed. Luckily, instead of looking for just any materials I decided to go through the materials Shannon suggested for AM6. I've started reading through "how to become a Alpha male" again and actually decided to read some of David Deangelo's material this time around. I decided to watch some, over two hours worth actually, of his seminar on "cocky/Funny comedy" and came away with a lot of insights. I learned that laughter has more to do with people trying to bond with you than actually a reaction to something funny. I think in a book he mentioned research found that a lot of what people laugh at isn't really funny and that its mostly used as a social bonding mechanism. This would actually explain how some people , during and after AM6, would keep trying to get me to laugh at times when they saw me. I learned that its better to be cocky and funny than trying to intellectualize a conversation with a women, which was one of my problems before AM6. I can remember distinctly two different times I started getting intellectual with women and they both ended pretty bad. David also talked about how being a position where the man is saying the least and the women is saying the most is the best position to be in because it shows that the women is trying to get the man's approval. Interestingly enough, after watching this content I had a dream that night. I was trying to be cocky and funny with a women I knew in high school. It was going good until I noticed myself starting to get intellectual instead of being fun. She started to respond worse and worse until I finally woke up. I wonder if this all means that my subconscious was actually looking for this type of information on how to deal with women and is trying to absorb it.
I've also started reading Robert Greene's "the art of Seduction" again which I would highly recommend for people who are going to run either WM or SM. In the book he goes over the Different type of seduction personas there are and illustrates with different people in history. Reading it again I have definitely noticed some of the personas have major elements of AM6, WM, and SM. After reading it again it further assured me in my choice of doing SM after WM since I felt like I had more of a connection with the "Siren" persona. The siren persona is someone who has very sexualized body language, eye contact, voice tone, and mannerisms but at the same time have a kinda of innocence or distant (Maybe even non-needy) feel to them. To me this kinda of screamed sex magnet and I felt like it would fit my personality more. Apparently people get entranced by the siren when they speak not so much from what they said but in the Sexualized way they said it. It was also pointed out that there are more female persona "Sirens' than male persona sirens, which i feel would make your already high social value increase a lot. I do still think I will get pretty good results from picking up the "Natural", "Star"(Vincent Chase) and "Charismatic" personas through Women magnet though. I did find a article that gave fictional examples of some of the personas which I found very Interesting:
http://www.datingmetrics.com/the-art-of-...-seducers/
Lastly, I came to a realization this week as to why I've been having some resistance and slowness with getting as much out of this stage of the program. With AM6 I would normally get all the changes from each stage within the first 2 weeks and afterwards get no other changes. I also barely got any resistance through out the entire program. I think this mainly had to do with OE2 and my obsessive personality. I have a obsessive personality when it comes to things that pique my interest or curiosity. Once that happens I practically ignore all other things in my life even to the point of barely getting any sleep whatsoever. I think what the OE2 did was concentrate my Obsessiveness towards the AM6 goals to the point that it practically steamed rolled any resistance I would normally have. Though now that I'm doing WM2, which doesn't have OE2, I'm starting to notice resistance that I would have not even registered if it had OE2 in it. I feel like knowing this will really help me out with noticing when I try things like not listening to the sub as much or other avoidance behaviors that are actually resistance. That gets me to the nightmare I just had. It was like I was in middle earth with the dwarves from the hobbit movie. I was apparently as small as them but not a dwarve in this dream. It kept raining and we kept trying to stay out of the rain until we got to one of the dwarve's huts. Inside I noticed that a very small worm was coming out of the of skin on my arm. I plucked it out. With a bad feeling I unbuttoned my shirt and found that much larger worms were coming out of the skin on my chest. I tried plucking one of them out but it wouldn't come out. I woke up with a lot of fear and literally started rubbing my chest as soon as I woke up. The only thing I can think of is that I feel like there's something ugly about myself deep inside that scares me and that I'm ashamed of.
All in all, I feel like there's a lot of things that I began to realize this week that will really help me move forward with the goals of this program.
Only have about a week left in this stage so I thought I would give a update. Also, I just woke up from having my first nightmare while on a sub, which I will get into later, and can't really sleep right now.
After reading Enoch's WM 2.0 testimonial I decided to take his advice and read up on some PUA materials since he said in later stages that he was able to initially attract a lot of women but wouldn't be able keep the attraction because he wouldn't know how to proceed. Luckily, instead of looking for just any materials I decided to go through the materials Shannon suggested for AM6. I've started reading through "how to become a Alpha male" again and actually decided to read some of David Deangelo's material this time around. I decided to watch some, over two hours worth actually, of his seminar on "cocky/Funny comedy" and came away with a lot of insights. I learned that laughter has more to do with people trying to bond with you than actually a reaction to something funny. I think in a book he mentioned research found that a lot of what people laugh at isn't really funny and that its mostly used as a social bonding mechanism. This would actually explain how some people , during and after AM6, would keep trying to get me to laugh at times when they saw me. I learned that its better to be cocky and funny than trying to intellectualize a conversation with a women, which was one of my problems before AM6. I can remember distinctly two different times I started getting intellectual with women and they both ended pretty bad. David also talked about how being a position where the man is saying the least and the women is saying the most is the best position to be in because it shows that the women is trying to get the man's approval. Interestingly enough, after watching this content I had a dream that night. I was trying to be cocky and funny with a women I knew in high school. It was going good until I noticed myself starting to get intellectual instead of being fun. She started to respond worse and worse until I finally woke up. I wonder if this all means that my subconscious was actually looking for this type of information on how to deal with women and is trying to absorb it.
I've also started reading Robert Greene's "the art of Seduction" again which I would highly recommend for people who are going to run either WM or SM. In the book he goes over the Different type of seduction personas there are and illustrates with different people in history. Reading it again I have definitely noticed some of the personas have major elements of AM6, WM, and SM. After reading it again it further assured me in my choice of doing SM after WM since I felt like I had more of a connection with the "Siren" persona. The siren persona is someone who has very sexualized body language, eye contact, voice tone, and mannerisms but at the same time have a kinda of innocence or distant (Maybe even non-needy) feel to them. To me this kinda of screamed sex magnet and I felt like it would fit my personality more. Apparently people get entranced by the siren when they speak not so much from what they said but in the Sexualized way they said it. It was also pointed out that there are more female persona "Sirens' than male persona sirens, which i feel would make your already high social value increase a lot. I do still think I will get pretty good results from picking up the "Natural", "Star"(Vincent Chase) and "Charismatic" personas through Women magnet though. I did find a article that gave fictional examples of some of the personas which I found very Interesting:
http://www.datingmetrics.com/the-art-of-...-seducers/
Lastly, I came to a realization this week as to why I've been having some resistance and slowness with getting as much out of this stage of the program. With AM6 I would normally get all the changes from each stage within the first 2 weeks and afterwards get no other changes. I also barely got any resistance through out the entire program. I think this mainly had to do with OE2 and my obsessive personality. I have a obsessive personality when it comes to things that pique my interest or curiosity. Once that happens I practically ignore all other things in my life even to the point of barely getting any sleep whatsoever. I think what the OE2 did was concentrate my Obsessiveness towards the AM6 goals to the point that it practically steamed rolled any resistance I would normally have. Though now that I'm doing WM2, which doesn't have OE2, I'm starting to notice resistance that I would have not even registered if it had OE2 in it. I feel like knowing this will really help me out with noticing when I try things like not listening to the sub as much or other avoidance behaviors that are actually resistance. That gets me to the nightmare I just had. It was like I was in middle earth with the dwarves from the hobbit movie. I was apparently as small as them but not a dwarve in this dream. It kept raining and we kept trying to stay out of the rain until we got to one of the dwarve's huts. Inside I noticed that a very small worm was coming out of the of skin on my arm. I plucked it out. With a bad feeling I unbuttoned my shirt and found that much larger worms were coming out of the skin on my chest. I tried plucking one of them out but it wouldn't come out. I woke up with a lot of fear and literally started rubbing my chest as soon as I woke up. The only thing I can think of is that I feel like there's something ugly about myself deep inside that scares me and that I'm ashamed of.
All in all, I feel like there's a lot of things that I began to realize this week that will really help me move forward with the goals of this program.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche