12-19-2014, 12:49 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-19-2014, 01:04 AM by DarthXedonias.)
Stage 1, Day 16
Been a few days so thought I would make a report since a few weird things have been happening lately. I've decided to make just regular post for now on and save the Type B and Type D posts for stage summaries.
Like I said I've noticed some weird things within myself internally and I forgot to mention a few other things in my opening post. I feel like this stage is like stage 1 of AM6 except for breaking down any barriers against socializing. I've noticed myself enjoying socializing a lot more and even get involved in conversations without even thinking about it. For example, I remember I was sitting at the break room at work and I hear two of my co-workers talking about a subject I'm familiar with in the next room. Without thinking, I get up, go into the next room, and start talking to them about it without even thinking. Once the conversation is shortly over with, I just say in my head, "WTF was that?". I normally would never do something like that usually, I'm usually a lot more reserved. There was also another incident where one of the girls who is acting more favorably towards me starts talking to me about a customer she just talked to and while shes talking to me I just, out of no where, get this strong thought and urge that I should kiss her right then. Had to stop myself because we were at work and near two other co-workers. I should mention that she isn't even good looking. I'm starting to think that the "Intuition and Observational Enhancement" might have something to do with it. Like I'm getting to realize when a girl is interested.I'm also noticing that I get a lot more comfortable with people I don't know that well. Lastly, I notice that customers at work are asking more than ever how my day is going when I'm serving them. Before I would probably get this asked like once a day, now its like six times a day.
Now, I think I should mention the things I forgot to mention in my opening post of which many have only gotten stronger. One thing I have noticed is that i'm able to notice the beauty in every woman now. Doesn't mean I will go out with just anyone but I seem to appreciate their inner beauty even more now. Also, No FAP is not a option in this stage. For some reason something in this stage has just sent my sex drive into high gear. Though one unexpected benefit seems that I don't get drained as easily. I have the feeling if I were to have a woman in my life right now I would probably be able to go multiple rounds right now which wouldn't have been possible before. I wasn't expecting this type of thing until I started Sex Magnet. Another thing is that my anger towards BS from AM6 is still there but its more of a playful type of anger if that makes since. I'm still annoyed by others BS but its more like I laugh at their stupidity now.
I've had two dreams so far in this stage. The first one I was leaving my apartment for work, I get to work and see my manager there. All of a sudden I look over my shoulder and am back at my room in my apartment. On top of my couch I see a good looking woman in sexy Lingerie who says, "Come here I know you want it" lol. The last dream I had was with just everything being pitch black and I keep on hearing these two people arguing back and forth. I notice the Positive voice as Tyrion Lannister from game of Thrones and the Negative voice as Sam from the same series. The interesting thing about this dream as well is that I feel like me and Tyrion are the same person. When he speaks I feel like its coming out of my mouth. Essentially Tyrion keeps saying positive things about the need for courage and sacrifice for the greater good etc, while Sam keeps saying negative things in return. Right before I wake up, Tyrion/me get the last word in. I'm wondering if the first dream is showing that my attitude is shifting from one of seriousness and work to one of having fun and pleasure. As for the second dream I can probably only think that it symbolizes my positive thinking winning over any old negative programming that might still be around.
One other thing, I've once again been thinking about my future sub use. Not much has changed except for what I will be doing after the AYP subs. I don't know why but I've been getting the urge to run AM6 again and really make sure the results are permanent. Therefore, My sub rotation is looking more like WM>SM>AYPW>AYPFWL>AM6x2>SMx2. I really want to have that feeling of invincibility to sink into the core of who I am so I will do AM6 for a straight year and SM for a year after that. Who knows though, by that time maybe AM7 6G will be out.
Been a few days so thought I would make a report since a few weird things have been happening lately. I've decided to make just regular post for now on and save the Type B and Type D posts for stage summaries.
Like I said I've noticed some weird things within myself internally and I forgot to mention a few other things in my opening post. I feel like this stage is like stage 1 of AM6 except for breaking down any barriers against socializing. I've noticed myself enjoying socializing a lot more and even get involved in conversations without even thinking about it. For example, I remember I was sitting at the break room at work and I hear two of my co-workers talking about a subject I'm familiar with in the next room. Without thinking, I get up, go into the next room, and start talking to them about it without even thinking. Once the conversation is shortly over with, I just say in my head, "WTF was that?". I normally would never do something like that usually, I'm usually a lot more reserved. There was also another incident where one of the girls who is acting more favorably towards me starts talking to me about a customer she just talked to and while shes talking to me I just, out of no where, get this strong thought and urge that I should kiss her right then. Had to stop myself because we were at work and near two other co-workers. I should mention that she isn't even good looking. I'm starting to think that the "Intuition and Observational Enhancement" might have something to do with it. Like I'm getting to realize when a girl is interested.I'm also noticing that I get a lot more comfortable with people I don't know that well. Lastly, I notice that customers at work are asking more than ever how my day is going when I'm serving them. Before I would probably get this asked like once a day, now its like six times a day.
Now, I think I should mention the things I forgot to mention in my opening post of which many have only gotten stronger. One thing I have noticed is that i'm able to notice the beauty in every woman now. Doesn't mean I will go out with just anyone but I seem to appreciate their inner beauty even more now. Also, No FAP is not a option in this stage. For some reason something in this stage has just sent my sex drive into high gear. Though one unexpected benefit seems that I don't get drained as easily. I have the feeling if I were to have a woman in my life right now I would probably be able to go multiple rounds right now which wouldn't have been possible before. I wasn't expecting this type of thing until I started Sex Magnet. Another thing is that my anger towards BS from AM6 is still there but its more of a playful type of anger if that makes since. I'm still annoyed by others BS but its more like I laugh at their stupidity now.
I've had two dreams so far in this stage. The first one I was leaving my apartment for work, I get to work and see my manager there. All of a sudden I look over my shoulder and am back at my room in my apartment. On top of my couch I see a good looking woman in sexy Lingerie who says, "Come here I know you want it" lol. The last dream I had was with just everything being pitch black and I keep on hearing these two people arguing back and forth. I notice the Positive voice as Tyrion Lannister from game of Thrones and the Negative voice as Sam from the same series. The interesting thing about this dream as well is that I feel like me and Tyrion are the same person. When he speaks I feel like its coming out of my mouth. Essentially Tyrion keeps saying positive things about the need for courage and sacrifice for the greater good etc, while Sam keeps saying negative things in return. Right before I wake up, Tyrion/me get the last word in. I'm wondering if the first dream is showing that my attitude is shifting from one of seriousness and work to one of having fun and pleasure. As for the second dream I can probably only think that it symbolizes my positive thinking winning over any old negative programming that might still be around.
One other thing, I've once again been thinking about my future sub use. Not much has changed except for what I will be doing after the AYP subs. I don't know why but I've been getting the urge to run AM6 again and really make sure the results are permanent. Therefore, My sub rotation is looking more like WM>SM>AYPW>AYPFWL>AM6x2>SMx2. I really want to have that feeling of invincibility to sink into the core of who I am so I will do AM6 for a straight year and SM for a year after that. Who knows though, by that time maybe AM7 6G will be out.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche