10-12-2015, 09:00 AM
Almost in the verge of completeing the Stage 3.
Holy Fuck !!. This is insane ride till now. A polish Milf approched me and I was able to bang her last weekend. The best part is I did nothing. I let her seduce me. If guys are thinking about being that cool alpha male type then NO. I was feeling absolute shit inside and my mind is still running million negative things. Now my entire focus is on to build myself a solid and confident man. I am litrelly obsessed to improve my self as if my life is depended on it. I am seeing some good eye contacts from women. However I am still acting and feeling like pussy ( may de due to exseccive porn and mastrubution). Something clicked inside me and I promised myself to never touch porn again and mastrbute every once in a month. I had noticed that when I dont fap I usually attract women ( Who just wants sex) in my life out of thin air. I had seen this pattern emerge again,again and again and again. My focus is now more on Shadow work ( its funny that I was never aware of this kind of work and after starting subs I came to know). Alotught now I have a really hot polish girl ( ex model) I still feel empty inside and I kinda feel that she will cheat and leave me for other guys. This insecurity is killing me inside. Stage 3 by far littrely raped me from inside out. Its almost to a point of getting random suciadial thoughts. But things are getting better. Will keep you all posted.
Holy Fuck !!. This is insane ride till now. A polish Milf approched me and I was able to bang her last weekend. The best part is I did nothing. I let her seduce me. If guys are thinking about being that cool alpha male type then NO. I was feeling absolute shit inside and my mind is still running million negative things. Now my entire focus is on to build myself a solid and confident man. I am litrelly obsessed to improve my self as if my life is depended on it. I am seeing some good eye contacts from women. However I am still acting and feeling like pussy ( may de due to exseccive porn and mastrubution). Something clicked inside me and I promised myself to never touch porn again and mastrbute every once in a month. I had noticed that when I dont fap I usually attract women ( Who just wants sex) in my life out of thin air. I had seen this pattern emerge again,again and again and again. My focus is now more on Shadow work ( its funny that I was never aware of this kind of work and after starting subs I came to know). Alotught now I have a really hot polish girl ( ex model) I still feel empty inside and I kinda feel that she will cheat and leave me for other guys. This insecurity is killing me inside. Stage 3 by far littrely raped me from inside out. Its almost to a point of getting random suciadial thoughts. But things are getting better. Will keep you all posted.
