05-01-2015, 02:18 PM
(04-30-2015, 02:40 PM)Clansy Wrote: Ok, seems like only few days have passed but have so much to report. First of all had a interesting question from my mom 2 days back. She asked if a lot of girls approach me to hit on me in streets. When I asked why she thinks so she told me that I look good and she would't be surprised if lots of girls would try to hit on me. First time she had such a interesting question, so most likely some of the auras is starting to take effect.
Another thing is I had a call from a girl I didn't know inviting me to a date. Basically what she said was "Hi, I want to meet with you. You don't know me, my name is ***, I am from school *** (school I have pretty much no relation to except few friends I am studying with that studied there), I have 2 tickets to the consert and I would like to go with you". To tell you the truth I was a bit sleepy at that time (had 1h nap in the middle of the day) and taking into consideration my lately bold talks with girls (thought might be some friend of some of them) I decided to simply say, that "It's pleasant to get a invitation, but please write me in the facebook first" in nice voice. Didn't hear from her after that.
Other things I notice is desire to keep my house clean, walking around the house cleaning them, taking care of myself. As always seems like I just have to push all the conversations with girls to sex, to tell you the truth it makes me feel very needy and pushy. Almost desperate and even if rejections doesn't hurt too much, but they all add up. And taking into consideration that soon I am turning 20, am still a virgin (even too I had some experiences that would make lots of men jealous), and all the girls and guys I talk with seems to be having great sex time (casual or not) with other people. This really makes me think why I can't have it and why I suck so much and that adds up to the feeling of being desperate (I know, this doesn't make sense... Logically I do understand it, but it is totally different feeling from AM, then I literally didn't care, now its up).
Remember you're only in Stage 1, so that neediness still has 5 stages left to get worked on in your subconscious
