08-11-2015, 09:23 PM
(08-04-2015, 07:24 PM)GlaizenGold777 Wrote: No need to frustating my friend, there are plenty of fish on the sea.
LOL bro I think the frustrating thing is that this emotion started to come over me... It's a feeling I haven't felt since I was a teenager, the "crush" starting to develop. I've numbed myself to emotions through my use and abuse of drugs and alcohol and I just pinpointed the feeling I had! It's wild.
stage 1 day 28
It's crazy how whenever I'm not actively seeking out the effects of my sub usage, the more I end up noticing in retrospect. There's some CRAZY attraction from girls. (subjectively, because I am not used to this kind of attention, even though I see other guys get FAR MORE attraction from girls than I am getting now).
The milf from my AM6 runs (40 y/o azn woman) is basically dying to fornicate with me. She texts me with the word "dear", "love", talks about her boobies, and then yesterday she told me to call her as soon as I got the message. Then she said "we need to get some FOOD soon!" in a very excited, schoolgirly type voice. Desired result = MUST BANG before leaving the country
That girl from tinder (half indian, half arabic + hint of mexican) has been all over me via text, but I haven't really been pursuing her. I feel bad, actually I think she really likes me and definitely shows signs of "fallout" they hint of at PUA and pheromone forums. Desired result= would bang, but she'd be really clingy and I wouldn't want to hurt her feelings so I'm rethinking that. (look at me, where did this conscience come from?)
There's another older white lady who's probably in her mid 40's who seems super into me :O. always hitting me up to help look at her phone or computer, and how she's gonna bribe me with a sandwich. She's great looking with a great body! She would have been a perfect 10 in her younger years, and it's awesome to get such attention from her! I still consider her a perfect 10, and the net result = could and would bang if possible.
I was just looking at my google hangouts history, and the 5 most recent chats are with women, who are 8's and up in my book. Minus this one whale from Wales, who I enjoy chatting with, and that's it.
It's hard to imagine that all this shit happened in 28 days O_O
OH I went to a young people in alcoholics anonymous conference in lousiana over this past weekend, and it was a lot easier to initiate conversation with girls I had never met before. Although I only knew 3 people there out of the 500 people, so that probably has a lot to do with it... lol. Met some 9's from Miami, and played a game of Mafia with a group of 30 people, and it came down to me (mafia), and two of the miami girls who were best friends. I ALMOST had won the game with my manipulation, and the girl WAS SO CLOSE to believing me, but my emotions got in the way and I didn't have the heart to fuqq with the girls (even though it was a game).
On Saturday, there was a dance contest and I had won 1st place, surprisingly :O . Man it feels SO good to be a part of something, to have fun with others my age, but I wish I had more balls to go further with women! The conference was at a hotel, and I'm SO sure I could have gotten laid there if I had XYZ... I'm sure it'll come, I imagine there's a lot of debriefing going on during stage 1 before the heavy hitter stages comes in and starts laying the foundation to what will become eternitys_child embodied as a sex magnet
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Now if only I had a vehicle, and didn't live in a halfway house, and wasn't busy all the freaking time, and (insert excuse here), I could have had sex already. Although I probably wouldn't have had the cojones to initiate anything anyway.
Lot has happened, a lot more to come.
