Day 127 of FYPJ,day 90 of STC
After 90 days of STC I'm going to stop using it and change it to remove
negativity within.It's has such incredible effects and got me into facing
and succeeding in lots of stuff I wanted to.
There's total disconnection from embarrassment about making mistakes
and screwing up and I'm persisting even when being not good enough.
Anyway I'll write more about it's not 5:43 AM and I went to salsa and danced and danced.Interesting effect in salsa is me starting to learn and model things that other people do rather fast.The not caring about making
mistakes and doing new stuff helps a lot.
I tried new stuff because I bored with the usual stuff I normally do and
tried to improvise moves.It seems something is getting into me when
learning new stuff and improving.
One curious thing today was during dancing I felt so hollow,cold and
emotionless.There were some dances I did brilliantly and women really
enjoyed and I was so empty inside.In one I did lots of more sexual/sensual
stuff which is fun but will be lots of writing to explain.I felt my body getting
a somewhat aroused which is natural after getting a really cute woman
close,getting her to touch my chest and abdomen and doing similar
things to her.It took me less than about two weeks with about
two or three dancing sessions to learn and getting comfortable with this.
Maybe it's because of too much meditation I'm doing lately.I have to look
into it.Or something with the flow state.I'll figure this later.
And I have no idea what to do about going on with finding a job.
After 90 days of STC I'm going to stop using it and change it to remove
negativity within.It's has such incredible effects and got me into facing
and succeeding in lots of stuff I wanted to.
There's total disconnection from embarrassment about making mistakes
and screwing up and I'm persisting even when being not good enough.
Anyway I'll write more about it's not 5:43 AM and I went to salsa and danced and danced.Interesting effect in salsa is me starting to learn and model things that other people do rather fast.The not caring about making
mistakes and doing new stuff helps a lot.
I tried new stuff because I bored with the usual stuff I normally do and
tried to improvise moves.It seems something is getting into me when
learning new stuff and improving.
One curious thing today was during dancing I felt so hollow,cold and
emotionless.There were some dances I did brilliantly and women really
enjoyed and I was so empty inside.In one I did lots of more sexual/sensual
stuff which is fun but will be lots of writing to explain.I felt my body getting
a somewhat aroused which is natural after getting a really cute woman
close,getting her to touch my chest and abdomen and doing similar
things to her.It took me less than about two weeks with about
two or three dancing sessions to learn and getting comfortable with this.
Maybe it's because of too much meditation I'm doing lately.I have to look
into it.Or something with the flow state.I'll figure this later.
And I have no idea what to do about going on with finding a job.
