05-21-2015, 09:35 AM
Week 11. Captain's Log 5/21/2015
I have been having a rough time over the past 2 weeks. I have been dealing with my own health issues, my aging parents health issues and my brother's divorce all at the same time. Watching his family being torn apart is really hitting the entire family pretty hard.
I am almost 3 months in to ASC5 and I feel like giving up. I was really thinking that I would be over all of the resistance by now. Instead it is getting worse. I am having a hard time dealing with all of this emotional baggage from my childhood. When will it ever end? Before I started I couldn't decide whether to do ASC or EPRHA. I chose ASC so I would have the confidence to do EPRHA when I was ready for it.
I have a short list for my next sub and I think EPRHA5 is not going to make the cut. Just having a difficult time with ASC5 right now. I am going to recommit myself until June and then decide what direction to take from there. Maybe I will stop completely or do one of my 4G titles, probably US4G. The jury is still out.
Can anybody tell me how long do I have to go through this catharsis? I feel like shit. I'm starting to lose faith in the system.
Thanks,
Rick
Here's the quote for the week:
"Your experience in the world of physical matter flows outward from the center of your inner psyche. Then you perceive this experience."
- Seth/ Jane Roberts "The Nature of Personal Reality"
I have been having a rough time over the past 2 weeks. I have been dealing with my own health issues, my aging parents health issues and my brother's divorce all at the same time. Watching his family being torn apart is really hitting the entire family pretty hard.
I am almost 3 months in to ASC5 and I feel like giving up. I was really thinking that I would be over all of the resistance by now. Instead it is getting worse. I am having a hard time dealing with all of this emotional baggage from my childhood. When will it ever end? Before I started I couldn't decide whether to do ASC or EPRHA. I chose ASC so I would have the confidence to do EPRHA when I was ready for it.
I have a short list for my next sub and I think EPRHA5 is not going to make the cut. Just having a difficult time with ASC5 right now. I am going to recommit myself until June and then decide what direction to take from there. Maybe I will stop completely or do one of my 4G titles, probably US4G. The jury is still out.
Can anybody tell me how long do I have to go through this catharsis? I feel like shit. I'm starting to lose faith in the system.
Thanks,
Rick
Here's the quote for the week:
"Your experience in the world of physical matter flows outward from the center of your inner psyche. Then you perceive this experience."
- Seth/ Jane Roberts "The Nature of Personal Reality"
