08-18-2014, 10:05 AM
Stage 1 Day 24
The last couple of days I seemed to develop a manic desire for women and found even the plainest ones really sexy and staring myself into their bodies almost. Suddenly its gone and I'm completely indifferent about them now. Sex drive seems to have gone off too as does porn.
On Saturday i went to this shitty nightclub near where I live with a mate of mine. Usually I'm really nervous and self conscious at these places but I was completely cool with it and totally unfazed. Received some death eye contact with one bloke standing near where i was sitting. I didn't know him or have any interaction with him he just gave me this killer stare. I did look away first but not down like i would have done before (even a goldfish could stare be down before!)I sensed real danger in attempting a face-off with him.
Still feeling great and happy in my skin. Not so hung up about age differences either. Bought some new clothes and designer smellies and bathing more.
I'm also enjoying the books recommended for AM6. I have learned a lot about women and tried connecting emotionally with a young girl where i work who previously ignored me. Suddenly i couldn't stop her talking and now its "hi Ricardo" everyday!
The last couple of days I seemed to develop a manic desire for women and found even the plainest ones really sexy and staring myself into their bodies almost. Suddenly its gone and I'm completely indifferent about them now. Sex drive seems to have gone off too as does porn.
On Saturday i went to this shitty nightclub near where I live with a mate of mine. Usually I'm really nervous and self conscious at these places but I was completely cool with it and totally unfazed. Received some death eye contact with one bloke standing near where i was sitting. I didn't know him or have any interaction with him he just gave me this killer stare. I did look away first but not down like i would have done before (even a goldfish could stare be down before!)I sensed real danger in attempting a face-off with him.
Still feeling great and happy in my skin. Not so hung up about age differences either. Bought some new clothes and designer smellies and bathing more.
I'm also enjoying the books recommended for AM6. I have learned a lot about women and tried connecting emotionally with a young girl where i work who previously ignored me. Suddenly i couldn't stop her talking and now its "hi Ricardo" everyday!
