01-30-2019, 04:29 PM
Hmm. During the first break days, I'm feeling kinda weird. On one hand, I'd like to stay at home, sleep a lot, think and allow stuff to unravel (f. in. I skipped bardic practice yesterday, as I had trouble falling asleep, and then slept a whole lot, ~10-12 hrs). On the other hand, I've got stuff to do. On the third hand (lol), I now am able to tell what and how exactly is being blocked by fear, and what results out of these blockages.
The idea now is to remove it, and the barriers should fall.
I can feel myself oscillating between "toeing the line" within the constraints of the fears, lashing out at said fears, and trying to force myself to do stuff despite the fears (which is what I've been doing pretty much all my life, with mixed success).
The idea now is to remove it, and the barriers should fall.
I can feel myself oscillating between "toeing the line" within the constraints of the fears, lashing out at said fears, and trying to force myself to do stuff despite the fears (which is what I've been doing pretty much all my life, with mixed success).
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
