11-28-2017, 03:02 AM
ARA 5.5G, Day 3
I did was OF 5G for some 34 days. The process of it was in full swing, and definitely still unfinished. What it seems to do is to point out the fear is everything quite obviously, and then you just slug through it. I was expecting a lot of nightly scares and paranoia and such, but I really only got one scare dream that I remember - a spider dropped on my head. Otherwise its about everything going wrong - about what you fear could happen. Its quite tiring, and I think I might be giving off bad vibes because I expect I have to struggle with everyone, and I know I have been short with people. Also wake up tense every morning. But this is the stuff I am normally tiring myself out unconsciously avoiding, so its good to face it. The drawback is that it has now become my main hobby to just explore all kinds of fear-feelings I find - not a very active way of living.
The thought of ARA has been growing on me, and I wanted to try it. I think you never know what a program will really be like for you until you try it. Don't really have much to say yet. The dreams have been similar these first nights - facing anxious situations. This is likely just my imagination at this point, but I'd expect ARA to be more about "I feel anxious know, doing something, because I think maybe something bad could happen" vs OF is "my fears came true and all this nasty stuff IS happening - now how do I face it". The drawback to the latter is you may start to develop a kind of grim attitude because you'll always assume the worst will happen, and then begin to mount your brave counter offence early. In a fiction novel, the main character said anger is my shield against fear... (later) ... the way to defeat way is with reason. In this I think it could be good to realize the probabilities and real costs of things and choices, then drop this anxiety and relax and enjoy and succeed.
I did was OF 5G for some 34 days. The process of it was in full swing, and definitely still unfinished. What it seems to do is to point out the fear is everything quite obviously, and then you just slug through it. I was expecting a lot of nightly scares and paranoia and such, but I really only got one scare dream that I remember - a spider dropped on my head. Otherwise its about everything going wrong - about what you fear could happen. Its quite tiring, and I think I might be giving off bad vibes because I expect I have to struggle with everyone, and I know I have been short with people. Also wake up tense every morning. But this is the stuff I am normally tiring myself out unconsciously avoiding, so its good to face it. The drawback is that it has now become my main hobby to just explore all kinds of fear-feelings I find - not a very active way of living.
The thought of ARA has been growing on me, and I wanted to try it. I think you never know what a program will really be like for you until you try it. Don't really have much to say yet. The dreams have been similar these first nights - facing anxious situations. This is likely just my imagination at this point, but I'd expect ARA to be more about "I feel anxious know, doing something, because I think maybe something bad could happen" vs OF is "my fears came true and all this nasty stuff IS happening - now how do I face it". The drawback to the latter is you may start to develop a kind of grim attitude because you'll always assume the worst will happen, and then begin to mount your brave counter offence early. In a fiction novel, the main character said anger is my shield against fear... (later) ... the way to defeat way is with reason. In this I think it could be good to realize the probabilities and real costs of things and choices, then drop this anxiety and relax and enjoy and succeed.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
