Primal (PM 5.11)

[Raz]

Day 1

+ ~1 hour after first loop: massive increase in motivation. I surfed this feeling and completed little errands that I have been procrastinating on for days before.

Feeling full of energy and zest - even now roughly 12 hours after my first dose. Hell, I am starting a journal, which I haven't felt compelled to do for a long time.

Maybe Primal Masculinity is the Lust For Life infusion I have been waiting for.

[Benjamin]

Good to see a PM journal, I thought mine was going to be the first one. Sadly I had to put it off due to some annoying physical symptoms come up, I was planning to start this week until that.

Those are similar reasons I want to do PM (amongst others) in that I want more motivation and drive in my life, and the "lust for life infusion" sounds spot on too. I'm starting to wonder how many issues i'm having is low testosterone, because it's seeming like working on motivation and such at the mental/emotional level isn't getting me where I want, compared to in the past where I had alot more drive to do so.

I will likely expand on this more when I have my journal. But it really seems that this is how they want men to be, no drive, just down and no lust for life, beaten down.. so that they can't stand up to the crazy bullshit being thrown onto us in recent times.

This is why things like PM are so important and will become even more so as time goes on.

[Raz]

Yes, I also think that low testosterone is one reason that is behind declining drive and motivation. But then there is also being continuously sanded down by the state of society. It not being a nail sticking out that gets hammered but more of a constant abrasion. Reminds me of Peter Finch in Network complaining that all is bad

[GreekGod22]

Following. I’m considering PM for my next sub once I’m done with E5, and considering that 6G subs currently not an option for me financially.
This energy, drive to succeed, to tackle life’s challenges head on is what I’m missing.

[LionKing]

Nice, I'm on this too. Day 9 now. I ran it 1-2 times per week with OGSF for a month a couple months back and clearly it was giving me more energy. Now running it by itself to see of something else develops. It's this nice positive energy and inspiration boost without the angriness/opposition that takes over my thoughts on AM or Maverick. Angry about perceived disrespect or something like that.

[Raz]

Day 3

I am starting to get the stink  This androstenone-musky smell is not overly strong (yet) but noticeable.

My average energy levels are a bit higher than baseline pre-PM.

Mood is good.

[Raz]

Day 5

Holy macaroni! During my every day training I am on fire! It feels great to get my muscles pumping.

[thectexperience1]

Hell yeah!

[Raz]

Day 8

Something interesting is starting to happen to mental barriers I have created over time. Normally such a barrier is just that - once you come up to it, there is an opaque but not always noticeable block that hinders you from following further down that mental road. A semi-invisible Stop sign. Now those barriers are getting more noticeable. Mainly by suddenly becoming transparent. I can see the paths beyond them easily. They just feel like they aren't barriers any more, like they are an ghostly echo. Or as if they never were real in the first place (which they weren't).

[Raz]

Day 12

Since at least back to 5.8 G I had a mental bubble/barrier that would filter out anxiousness and the like, granting me a state of mental peace, tranquility and an innate sense of security. Interestingly, I notice this bubble fading with ongoing use of PM. Needless to say that I don't like this very much. Anxious stray thoughts are now entering my mindscape again from time to time, though I can still tune them out easily enough.

[thectexperience1]

Well what was the sub that got you there in the first place?

[Raz]

I can't remember exactly. That's why I put the generation descriptor there.

[thectexperience1]

I can't remember exactly. That's why I put the generation descriptor there.

Fair enough. I thought it might give you some clues to what is happening.

[Benjamin]

Day 12

Since at least back to 5.8 G I had a mental bubble/barrier that would filter out anxiousness and the like, granting me a state of mental peace, tranquility and an innate sense of security. Interestingly, I notice this bubble fading with ongoing use of PM. Needless to say that I don't like this very much. Anxious stray thoughts are now entering my mindscape again from time to time, though I can still tune them out easily enough.

Interesting.

My first thought is that contexts are shifting towards being Masculine and you aren't used to it at this level, so you were fairly comfortable before but now that you're getting into a new way of being there is more baggage around that bringing up anxiety.

Kind of like I don't really have any issues talking to women socially, in my extended group and such.. but if it's women that i'm attracted to and that I want then all the fear comes up and it's suddenly different.

Like being in the world while more connected with your Masculinity you may not be used to, hence feeling a bit anxious at times.