To quote myself:
So, I owe it to myself to try ASC at this point, because it could be spot-on exactly what I need for a lot of stuff, including getting more out my next AM/SM run. Confidence to act according to the programming.
If I think of low/high confidence as a selector according to which I see myself either failing or succeeding in anything that I do, then it makes sense that low confidence would amplify fears and provide hardly any motivation, whereas high confidence would ignore fear and be highly motivating. Of course its easier to get started on something if you expect it to go well and be fun. Why feel fear over the worst case scenario if you never expect it to happen? And if it does, so what? Better to try anyway. Then again, confidence as a state is probably not long-lasting, unless present long enough to make you build up a long-enough list of positive reference experiences.
THIS was interesting as well, though I think the whole chakra thing is a bit too mystical for my tastes. But sad & loving feelings do tend to be located in the chest, and then the groin gets you horny, so there is something to take out of these, I think. I do often feel tension in my throat, and I guess the AA feeling is mostly upper chest/throat, too.
I gotta link to Fonzy's journal for inspiration here, its pretty great.
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Day 3
ASC does seem to work very fast. Of course I'm also consciously focused on confidence atm. The 1st night I couldn't get any sleep; I went to bed at midnight, then gave up at 3 am and got up to watch Sherlock s03e02. Also the 2 nights after that it seems I'm having trouble falling asleep, like I'm very restless. I like the dreams I had last night, they're more realistic than the typical OGSF dreams. In these I was just being confident in scenarios that could happen, whereas in the last OGSF dream I remember I playing dead, naked, when some hostile tribesmen where forming a campfire next to me and I was trying not to move while they started to cut me into peaces of steak. Though I thought of it as a computer game, so it wasn't scary.
In real life, I've been a bit louder and seeking more eye contact. Breaking personal records in pushups and breath retention.
Quote:So, I find myself in need of some ASC. Well, that's been the case for a long ass time, but let's say I'm finally waking up to it. I've done AM6, SM3, AM6 and halfway through WM2 (not what I want/need atm, stopped). What I want is more confidence in the sense that I'd believe that I can and will succeed in whatever I want to do. This confidence will be tested with the ladies, but its also highly needed for stuff like browsing and replying to job applications, making phone calls, grabbing opportunities that come up, talking what's on my mind, eventually moving to a bigger city, and so on.
I've done, and succeeded in, all of those things before, and I'm not shaking in fear of failing at them, but I usually do not expect to succeed in them. I also don't really NEED anything that much anymore, so it just feels like its usually not worth the effort (expecting to fail with mild discomfort + not much to gain = no action --> no success --> feeling bad). From experience I know that (expecting to succeed + high fear) is actually very motivating for me, so I see how beneficial ASC could be.
AM6 is too subtle for me in terms of type A, or alpha 1.0, confidence and I believe I'd not get what I want if I were to run it for a 3rd time now. I remember SM3 being more powerful for me in this regard, but also that this kinda faded towards the end of the program.
So, I owe it to myself to try ASC at this point, because it could be spot-on exactly what I need for a lot of stuff, including getting more out my next AM/SM run. Confidence to act according to the programming.
If I think of low/high confidence as a selector according to which I see myself either failing or succeeding in anything that I do, then it makes sense that low confidence would amplify fears and provide hardly any motivation, whereas high confidence would ignore fear and be highly motivating. Of course its easier to get started on something if you expect it to go well and be fun. Why feel fear over the worst case scenario if you never expect it to happen? And if it does, so what? Better to try anyway. Then again, confidence as a state is probably not long-lasting, unless present long enough to make you build up a long-enough list of positive reference experiences.
THIS was interesting as well, though I think the whole chakra thing is a bit too mystical for my tastes. But sad & loving feelings do tend to be located in the chest, and then the groin gets you horny, so there is something to take out of these, I think. I do often feel tension in my throat, and I guess the AA feeling is mostly upper chest/throat, too.
I gotta link to Fonzy's journal for inspiration here, its pretty great.
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Day 3
ASC does seem to work very fast. Of course I'm also consciously focused on confidence atm. The 1st night I couldn't get any sleep; I went to bed at midnight, then gave up at 3 am and got up to watch Sherlock s03e02. Also the 2 nights after that it seems I'm having trouble falling asleep, like I'm very restless. I like the dreams I had last night, they're more realistic than the typical OGSF dreams. In these I was just being confident in scenarios that could happen, whereas in the last OGSF dream I remember I playing dead, naked, when some hostile tribesmen where forming a campfire next to me and I was trying not to move while they started to cut me into peaces of steak. Though I thought of it as a computer game, so it wasn't scary.
In real life, I've been a bit louder and seeking more eye contact. Breaking personal records in pushups and breath retention.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.