PTSD Rec. Aid + DRS extravaganza

[Have at ye]

Cool, calm, collected. People are noticing this, and some are trying to provoke me to lose my temper which is a nuisance.

Also not really interested in romance right now, but gradually getting there.

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Things are going pretty well, but it seems like my immediate family is trying to take over control of my healing process, which I think is going to fail this time around because the people working in this particular facility are competent. Fingers crossed I'm in the home stretch!

The aura of love aspect in PTRA seems to be quite pronounced and makes me feel more comfortable with myself, as well as making decent people comfortable in my presence (not so decent people get salty, hence why I'm using DRS v2).

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Feeling better day after day. The docs here are actually planning to *retract* the apparent (now) misdiagnosis I received due to mobbing last September. Fancy that.

Making some neat friends here while I'm at it. The main troublemaker got moved to a more restrictive ward today as well.

Today, I've been on an Iron Maiden kick, playing "The Evil That Men Do" and other songs from its album on repertuar.

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Had a very nice day, spent with people I've come to like a great deal. I should be going home soon-ish.

The program is definitely working, and very well at that. But due to circumstances I think I'll re-set the run after getting back home and then I'll start the countdown of four months again.

I also feel no urge to switch programs and I'd like to run this one (plus DRS v2) until I'm satisfied it's done its job properly.

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Going back home next week, about time, heh!

People here are telling me being around me is like being around "and Oasis of Calm", heh. I'm also very assertive-yet-polite, takes a lot now to knock me off-balance.

This also appears to make me attractive to ladies who are into non-volatile men, which is *awesone*.

Gonna have to fix a PayPal issue on my end to procure further programs, something is amiss and I already contacted IML to see what's what. It was quite fortuitous, though, as otherwise I would have made an ill-advised, sudden switch in shielding which, in retrospect, would have have been a terribad idea.

[Have at ye]

Going back home on Tuesday, gonna start a new PTRA journal with a new 124-day long countdown to celebrate!

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I will be switching the listening time from evenings to mornings, as instead of making me sleepy, as it used to, PTRA is now making me feel light and quite energized, and wakes me up even if I was about to fall asleep.

[Frosted]

btw what's your listening regimen right now?

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I just switched from listening at about 9 PM to 5 PM.

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Can't wait to get hone and do proper re-run of PTRA.

My morale is high. I do get occasional moments when I feel worse for the wear, but they usually pass after several hours, tops. They're accompanied by Wonky Sensations TM but I'll describe those in more detail from my PC.

I'm planning to get the New X4A for future research purposes, should I get my PayPal issue fixed.

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I'm really, really bored at the hospital right now and simply counting the days until I can go hone (Tuesday). Gonna have to keep taking meds adter, though. Oh well. They sonewhat seem to dull my Wonky Sensations, though not completely (so I should still be able to describe them FWIW).

Had some very interesting dreams today.

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I've had a bunch of songs on repeat over the past several weeks, but today it's Uriah Heep - Lady in Black.

https://youtu.be/fipplWIr1SY?si=CkyodLBGKVi7BOCi

I actually have a very particular lady on mind while listening/singing along, and my eyes may be getting moist a touch. Lovely lyrics.

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Based on dreams I'm getting, which are diaturbing enough to wake me up, the program is gradually working through Heavy Stuff, early childhood-young adolescence stuff. I'm totally getting Vol. 2, but I think Vol. 1 should be enough for my needs, given enough listening time.

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Now I'm back to being sonewgmhat sleepy and maybe getting hints of a headache while trying not to fall asleep. Back home tomorrow, though! I'm already back to work on my phone, and doing bits of singing practice here and there.