Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal

[Ampersnd]

Day 3, T-minus 179 days until end.

It feels like my life has had a turnaround; though my knees are a bit sore from running, I am light in spirit and much more social. I'm mingling with the head brass without fear or apprehension (where I'd previously shy away for an imaginary fear of reprimand).

I'm much more fluid in my speech and don't trip on my words. I've also been cracking jokes in a calibrated way.

I look to the future with opportunity in mind; I want to get back into copywriting, marketing, sales calls, and online businesses, something that I had shied away from about one year ago. I can see myself making a lot of money very easily. Been getting back into Ben Settle and email marketing, and imagining that I can get very good at it if I apply myself.

[NOMAD]

I'm much more fluid in my speech and don't trip on my words. I've also been cracking jokes in a calibrated way.

Although it has only been a few days, I don't seem to be tripping on my words either. While some subs brought out my wit, OFv2 seemed to block it. Or to word it more carefully....my response to the OFv2 script was such that I found myself tongue-tied and less witty.

[Ampersnd]

I'm much more fluid in my speech and don't trip on my words. I've also been cracking jokes in a calibrated way.

Although it has only been a few days, I don't seem to be tripping on my words either. While some subs brought out my wit, OFv2 seemed to block it. Or to word it more carefully....my response to the OFv2 script was such that I found myself tongue-tied and less witty.

And I know exactly why (in my opinion); I used to be very careful for word choice because I was worried that the wrong choice would upset someone.

[Ampersnd]

Day 4, T-Minus 177 days under end,

I realize that my work-related benefits had overcome, if you will, 'Level 1' fears.
I ran errands today and came across a few pairs of good looking women, and froze up.
Having the same old patterns in my mind. No worries, this i just the start.

[THolt]

Day 4, T-Minus 177 days under end,

I realize that my work-related benefits were, if you will, 'Level 1' fears.
I ran errands today and came across a few pairs of good looking women, and froze up.
Having the same old patterns in my mind. No worries, this i just the start.

Same. Some of my fears are better but not the more deeper ones.

[Ampersnd]

Day 5, T-Minus 176 days until end,

Looking forward to run the loop tonight.

[Jake2015]

Day 5, T-Minus 176 days until end,

Looking forward to run the loop tonight.

Yeah im same im excited to play the sub and see what happens

[Ampersnd]

Day 6, T-Minus 175 days until end,

Out for a run today. I've run for 4 consecutive days, despite hesitating slightly today. I tend to dread the extended warm up exercises, which is probably not all that necessary for slow/easy runs. Did exactly that and ran further than I typically do on Mondays.

I have a phobia of bees, hornets, wasps, and flying objects; one flew reasonably close and I didn't panic. Granted, it didn't come close, but there was a difference. I anticipate more flying objects out on my runs.

[Jake2015]

Day 6, T-Minus 175 days until end,

Out for a run today. I've run for 4 consecutive days, despite hesitating slightly today. I tend to dread the extended warm up exercises, which is probably not all that necessary for slow/easy runs. Did exactly that and ran further than I typically do on Mondays.

I have a phobia of bees, hornets, wasps, and flying objects; one flew reasonably close and I didn't panic. Granted, it didn't come close, but there was a difference. I anticipate more flying objects out on my runs.

haha I have a phobia of them when im alone in a confined space with them (bees, wasps, spiders) such as a room so if OF can cure of these menaces then welcome to a new dawn my friend!

[Shannon]

How hard is it to just hold still around them? That's all you need to do until they leave.

[Jake2015]

How hard is it to just hold still around them?  That's all you need to do until they leave.

When theyre buzzing around and they dont leave but keep hitting into the window and I cannot leave then yeah the fear is real my friend haha but its that noise the bees and wasps make.... *im shuddering as I imagine it*

[Shannon]

How hard is it to just hold still around them?  That's all you need to do until they leave.

When theyre buzzing around and they dont leave but keep hitting into the window and I cannot leave then yeah the fear is real my friend haha but its that noise the bees and wasps make.... *im shuddering as I imagine it*

Fear is never your friend.  Just need to be patient for a few minutes until they leave.  Or spray them with bug spray and move on.  I have had them land on me and I just calmly wait until they fly away.  They won't sting unless they think you're going to attack.

[Jake2015]

How hard is it to just hold still around them?  That's all you need to do until they leave.

When theyre buzzing around and they dont leave but keep hitting into the window and I cannot leave then yeah the fear is real my friend haha but its that noise the bees and wasps make.... *im shuddering as I imagine it*

Fear is never your friend.  Just need to be patient for a few minutes until they leave.  Or spray them with bug spray and move on.  I have had them land on me and I just calmly wait until they fly away.  They won't sting unless they think you're going to attack.

yeah I usually go on the attack with a spray or a vaccum but ill never let them sit on me like you... I wanna live haha

[Ampersnd]

I've had a number of experiences (as a youth) where I had stirred up a bee's/wasp's nest and got stung a bunch.
Now, anytime I have a buzz near my head, I involuntarily jolt back and get a shot of adrenaline.
Can't help it.