Day 6,
Sore and achy joints and my mind is a bit tired this morning. I ran 25 miles this week; my highest running mileage for this week, I think.
Work went smoothly but I noticed that when a colleague would press me on a deadline, or a phone call expressed discontent (not towards me), I did not feel fear, but I stumbled on my words.
I think that these moments showcased a deeper need for approval (or a fear of disapproval); it's almost as though I had built up an identity on top of my fear - like tile flooring in a kitchen - of which the first set of loops broke a chunk out, but now there are holes I can trip over and get my leg stuck in. It will be messy until the holes are large enough to dive through.
Sore and achy joints and my mind is a bit tired this morning. I ran 25 miles this week; my highest running mileage for this week, I think.
Work went smoothly but I noticed that when a colleague would press me on a deadline, or a phone call expressed discontent (not towards me), I did not feel fear, but I stumbled on my words.
I think that these moments showcased a deeper need for approval (or a fear of disapproval); it's almost as though I had built up an identity on top of my fear - like tile flooring in a kitchen - of which the first set of loops broke a chunk out, but now there are holes I can trip over and get my leg stuck in. It will be messy until the holes are large enough to dive through.
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