Woke up again in the middle of the night, 4 30 am, about the same time as last night, Had a nightmare, I luckily became semi lucid for the ending of the nightmare, where I was also experiencing sleep paralysis,
It was a really grave , scary feeling that I had, but not the same type of feeling that I would have had before I used OF.
Feels like I was scared but not nearly as scared as I would have been in the past. I was able to wake up fortunately from the paralysis after a few seconds.
Another thing that I noticed which I personally believe in a DMSI TID. My entire life I had straight thick hair, that NEVER EVER curled even the slightest,
I had been cutting my hair super short like number 2 on top, skin fade on the sides when I was in colombia, & only the last month I started growing my hair out, I didn't notice this when I was there, but ever since I got back to Vancouver.
My hair has become SUPER CURLY. , I LOVE how it looks now. It gives me more character & I was never a fan of my straight hair, not that there is anything wrong with straight hair, but for me personally I look allot sexier now & adds allot more personality to my appearnce.
I truly believe this is a DMSI TID, because I really think I am much more attractive now this way.
I have only one logical explanation , that I had been using a bar of soap the entire time I was in Colombia to wash my hair, & maybe that took the oil out of my hair?? Causing it to curl? I started noticing it curl when I got back from Medellin but it's gotten even more curlier over the months since i got back.
I'm not sure if that's even a thing, I am just guessing. that's the only explanation other then DMSI I could think of.
with the combination of my new hair, & my fear reduction, the other night I saw 2 friends that I haven't seen in 7-8 months & they didn't even recognize me, I shook hands with one of them, & I found out 20 minutes later that he had thought I was another friend of his (someone that looked similar to the new me)
& another female friend that although not best friends, or part of main social group, I had spent a considerable amount of time with her last year, I saw her almost every day for 3 weeks.
So for them to literally not remember me, until I said something, was really interesting.
I honestly believe this is TID from DMSI.
I'm really loving the way I look when I look in the mirror, I started to look like my Uncle Amir, who lives in Iran, I haven't seen him since I was 10 years old, 17 years ago, He is the black sheep of the family like myself, & I really love him based off that one time I met him & lived with him for a month as a kid.
I have hair just like his now, & my mom is treating me better now I think because I made that comparison, & now she is starting to think of her brother every time she sees me, also because I've been better at expressing myself with my parents & don't have anger , even when they get mad I don't get angry.
My mom often got mad but now whenever I see her she's chill.
life is getting allot better in all aspects I'm glad!
It was a really grave , scary feeling that I had, but not the same type of feeling that I would have had before I used OF.
Feels like I was scared but not nearly as scared as I would have been in the past. I was able to wake up fortunately from the paralysis after a few seconds.
Another thing that I noticed which I personally believe in a DMSI TID. My entire life I had straight thick hair, that NEVER EVER curled even the slightest,
I had been cutting my hair super short like number 2 on top, skin fade on the sides when I was in colombia, & only the last month I started growing my hair out, I didn't notice this when I was there, but ever since I got back to Vancouver.
My hair has become SUPER CURLY. , I LOVE how it looks now. It gives me more character & I was never a fan of my straight hair, not that there is anything wrong with straight hair, but for me personally I look allot sexier now & adds allot more personality to my appearnce.
I truly believe this is a DMSI TID, because I really think I am much more attractive now this way.
I have only one logical explanation , that I had been using a bar of soap the entire time I was in Colombia to wash my hair, & maybe that took the oil out of my hair?? Causing it to curl? I started noticing it curl when I got back from Medellin but it's gotten even more curlier over the months since i got back.
I'm not sure if that's even a thing, I am just guessing. that's the only explanation other then DMSI I could think of.
with the combination of my new hair, & my fear reduction, the other night I saw 2 friends that I haven't seen in 7-8 months & they didn't even recognize me, I shook hands with one of them, & I found out 20 minutes later that he had thought I was another friend of his (someone that looked similar to the new me)
& another female friend that although not best friends, or part of main social group, I had spent a considerable amount of time with her last year, I saw her almost every day for 3 weeks.
So for them to literally not remember me, until I said something, was really interesting.
I honestly believe this is TID from DMSI.
I'm really loving the way I look when I look in the mirror, I started to look like my Uncle Amir, who lives in Iran, I haven't seen him since I was 10 years old, 17 years ago, He is the black sheep of the family like myself, & I really love him based off that one time I met him & lived with him for a month as a kid.
I have hair just like his now, & my mom is treating me better now I think because I made that comparison, & now she is starting to think of her brother every time she sees me, also because I've been better at expressing myself with my parents & don't have anger , even when they get mad I don't get angry.
My mom often got mad but now whenever I see her she's chill.
life is getting allot better in all aspects I'm glad!
