07-21-2022, 12:14 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-21-2022, 04:22 PM by ncbeareatingman.)
TID.... some releasing a light version of "burning' around my upper shoulders,neck and head... a form of almost energetic sizzling, a sligh heated-ness...somethings being removed, ripped,stripped off or burned off. its not painful I AM however aware of it. its only lasted a few seconds twice but was 'tangiblely' felt and sensed.
7/21/22
OFv2 is a Muther. This Mug came to play and git it done, not a dress rehearsal
I Have a deep feeling sensing that MY Life is no longer gonna be on the sidelines, getting ready to 'be' in the game rather
this practice season but baseball come autumn/winter the games afoot Shelock. In it to LIVE IT !!
TJC
Keith
Geez this is wild !
Additiona,Hours later;
some of the fear to be worked on
be they rational or irrational, so to speak...most leaning towards unfounded but experienced or feared toly potential to be expereided( yet another fear on top of that one) same dif' same kind of fight or flight stuff,internally/ Clearing fears of full on commuicating hoestnly and clearly wtih some folks( family member directly)
/being misunderstood/taken wrongly.etc.
fear of having it all -boted outta my gord- leading to destructiveness- equally death, dont do it,stay safe and proteced
Fear Of my mother dying( shes still in semi-decent-health all things considered) and as a result me, losing my shit, going insane, becoming a lost hobo :-) with no cigar smoke. at 64 its hard to catch trains to ride Ha!
fear of being attacked/ridculed/ostrazied by family reputation shot in thier eyes
Fear of being Lost
dying without ever having a real loving Man/Life Parnter, in My Life
and many other fears named and unnamed theres a ton of them but over all I remain prudy grounded and centered
fear of driving becoz of some serious traumatic situations 5 times in my life involving a vehicle, though I wasnt the one driving.
equals fear of bein outta control.loss of control dying from loss of control and related
Fear of being too spiritual around other people, fear of reprisal, fear of being locked up for thought of being crazy
(put in a nut house) connected with some previous lifetime's stuff, I can see things some times that many others can
not, being,energies,ect. certainly AM not the only one but im the only me that does. Fear of being fully myself ( that shits got to go!!)
Fear of Failure,shame that follows, Fear of being not enough, ya know the standard operation prorammed shit,many humans have gotten while coming up
I even have a fear of printing this out for fear of some dude jumpin my shit for writing this out and reading me the riot act.
spare of if thats your deal. Im not asking for a lecture/a sermon/ or the like.
I dont need it nor am I giving it.
Helpfulness/encouragment yes the other stuff,no. just in case. this is a deep journey, and its just beginning
These are some of my goals...most of it however Im leaving it 'open' to Life energy ,my inner higher self, and OFv4 to do it
thang ma-thang.
TJC (The Journey Continues....)
Keith
7/21/22
OFv2 is a Muther. This Mug came to play and git it done, not a dress rehearsal
I Have a deep feeling sensing that MY Life is no longer gonna be on the sidelines, getting ready to 'be' in the game rather
this practice season but baseball come autumn/winter the games afoot Shelock. In it to LIVE IT !!
TJC
Keith
Geez this is wild !
Additiona,Hours later;
some of the fear to be worked on
be they rational or irrational, so to speak...most leaning towards unfounded but experienced or feared toly potential to be expereided( yet another fear on top of that one) same dif' same kind of fight or flight stuff,internally/ Clearing fears of full on commuicating hoestnly and clearly wtih some folks( family member directly)
/being misunderstood/taken wrongly.etc.
fear of having it all -boted outta my gord- leading to destructiveness- equally death, dont do it,stay safe and proteced
Fear Of my mother dying( shes still in semi-decent-health all things considered) and as a result me, losing my shit, going insane, becoming a lost hobo :-) with no cigar smoke. at 64 its hard to catch trains to ride Ha!
fear of being attacked/ridculed/ostrazied by family reputation shot in thier eyes
Fear of being Lost
dying without ever having a real loving Man/Life Parnter, in My Life
and many other fears named and unnamed theres a ton of them but over all I remain prudy grounded and centered
fear of driving becoz of some serious traumatic situations 5 times in my life involving a vehicle, though I wasnt the one driving.
equals fear of bein outta control.loss of control dying from loss of control and related
Fear of being too spiritual around other people, fear of reprisal, fear of being locked up for thought of being crazy
(put in a nut house) connected with some previous lifetime's stuff, I can see things some times that many others can
not, being,energies,ect. certainly AM not the only one but im the only me that does. Fear of being fully myself ( that shits got to go!!)
Fear of Failure,shame that follows, Fear of being not enough, ya know the standard operation prorammed shit,many humans have gotten while coming up
I even have a fear of printing this out for fear of some dude jumpin my shit for writing this out and reading me the riot act.
spare of if thats your deal. Im not asking for a lecture/a sermon/ or the like.
I dont need it nor am I giving it.
Helpfulness/encouragment yes the other stuff,no. just in case. this is a deep journey, and its just beginning
These are some of my goals...most of it however Im leaving it 'open' to Life energy ,my inner higher self, and OFv4 to do it
thang ma-thang.
TJC (The Journey Continues....)
Keith
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"
