OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless

[GreekGod22]

Day 111 / 180 ON

3 loops Hybrid at 4-5/15 volume

Ended up playing a total of 6 loops yesterday. I’ve had some depression reoccurring and used Porn & masturbation as an escape mechanism again. OFv3 must be triggering something inside me once again.
Today I remembered the roommate I had while living in college dorm, a few good years ago. And I don’t think this memory is random. He was always the more dominant & leading guy in comparison to me. I once got into conflict with him and was afraid of physical altercation, so I made myself “small” from that moment and would not voice my opinion if something bothered me.
I am now angry at this memory, letting myself walked over like that. God damn, I was such a fearful and timid guy.
But at the same time, I have to give myself credit, because I've grown so much since.

Felt calm, powerful, at peace for the rest of the day.
Already have my mind on saving up some money for AM6.