OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless

[GreekGod22]

Day 73 / 180 ON

5 or 6 loops of Hybrid.

2 important realizations I've had today.

1. A few weeks ago I took an interest in boxing and martial arts because a mentor of mine I follow online recommends it for guys who deal with fear and / or anxiety, saying how it trains you to become present to the moment.
So a few weeks ago I had a sparring session with a friend who is more skilled at it, and it was a therapeutic and humbling experience. It is so different and more "manly" than lifting weights
I realized how much of it is a metaphor for life. As a man, if you are afraid to fight, your life is most likely dictated by fear.
So now I bought some leather gloves and decided to practice for myself. Did a sparing bag workout at the gym as cardio replacement.
I was thinking tonight how did I came up with this decision to start practicing fighting / boxing. Why did I had the courage to do it now? I was always terrified of the idea of violence / fighting because I was a scared and fearful boy. My conclusions is that OFv3 made me do it. OFv3 made me conquer just the needed amount of fear that prevented me from starting boxing(for cardio and self defense purposes).

2. After a discussion with a potential romantic interest, I realized I don't open up to people, almost at all. I don't reveal  details about me. This has hurt me both in my dating life(women ran away because I was emotionally unavailable) and also my friendships with other men, I can't properly bond with other guys.
All of this is based in fear. Fear of someone knowing my true self, fear of seeing how messed up am I on the inside, and eventually fear of being rejected when I reveal my authentic self