OF 5.75

[kuroshabedi]

I forgot to mention one fear that is significantly reducing and that is the fear of confrontation.(mostly against dad) plus i have a lot dreams about it. 
Some days ago i did some confrontation to him to protect my values that was not usual for me and a huge improvement. I didnt fear the consequences. My inner child was not afraid of dying if that makes sense

Great results my friend, good on ya

Thank you bro

[kuroshabedi]

I installed a porn blocker on my smartphone and even blocked social media to detox my mind and body. My first goal is 90 days.


Changes that i forgot: 

-I am not taking any kind of drugs since 3 months

-I gave up smoking since one month

-I started low carb diet (right now i am 83 kilos at 178cm my goal is to be 78 kilos)

[kuroshabedi]

OF boosts every area of your life. Its like a some sort of armour that says "go on do whatever you want to do in this life i will protect you if something goes wrong". It pushed me and motivated me in a lot of areas in my life. I am sure without i would easily go back to old unhealthy addictions et cetera. Without i wouldnt try so many things in that timeframe. I wouldnt be so open to try out things outside my comfort zone. Fear is a very strong emotion i can always see that by my cat but once its over you recognize that it was just an illusion. Something inside me did tell me lies and i thought they were my thoughts. Its only my past self my past negative beliefs that try to keep me away from that truth that i can be do and have everything i want. It thinks its protecting me but it doesnt understand that my negative past expierences have nothing to do with now and that self growth is so important.

I am now 81 kilos and on day 8 without masturbation and watching porn. My voice got a bit deeper my skin looks much better. I have better skin under my eyes. I have more energy and i have better mental clarity.

[Benjamin]

These results are good to see with how you were at the start.

[kuroshabedi]

These results are good to see with how you were at the start.

Yes. I hope after 8 months most of the benefits stay permanent

[kuroshabedi]

Today i recognized that i am holding eye contact much longer. I had to do something outside and i had intense long eye contact with 3 or 4 girls and they always looked away before me. Was a great feeling it was like i had sex with them psychological. I dont know if its from OF or nofap or a mix but its very noticable

[kuroshabedi]

A little comparison from past and now  for me as a reminder for negative deppressive days

In my past i had no and negative relationship to my mother and brother, now i am talking everyday with my mother and i am building a positive relationship with my brother we even went out after playing basketball. I can sense that he is respecting me more et cetera.

In my past i had really bad addictions like drugs and smoking bcz of some childhood trauma and now i stopped all of them.

In my past i had a very chaotic life without any routine now i wake up every morning meditate for 15 minutes and read for at least 20 minutes books that help for self improvement.

In my past i was always anxious and feared every little situation now i am a much more laid back person that never looses hope

In my past my thoughts were all chaotic and unconscious now i am more in control and direct my thoughts. Im aware of them.

In my past i was always avoiding everything and thought i am an introvert but now i am longer sure because i really think that was a lie have feeded my mind with. I literally want to do so many things and i want to socialize.

In my past i was holding unhealthy friendships for ten years and now i finally had the courage and let go of them without feeling guilty

In my past i was not caring about myself and now i am caring about myself my appearance my body my diet.

In my past i couldnt hold eye contact i was the worst person for holding eye contact and now i feel like i am a pro in that. So much that i sometimes feel like it was too much and i dominated that person. I have to practice it more.

For me OF in combination with no PMO (porn,masturbation and orgasm) and some supplements for brain like fish oil et cetera is perfect

[kuroshabedi]

So today i said goodbye to another person that was not good for my mental health.

Little background:

I had a relationship with one of my exes in the past and I did enjoy this time together the most. It was sexually and emotionally the best expierence that I had. Unfortunately it ended due my fears and my doubts . Like everything that feels good I got addicted to this expierence. I could not accept that this time is over. I thought if i just work on myself and try babysteps forward i could change this reality and to be honest it worked at least for half of it. We got in contact again I manifested a lot of text messages and other things. We even meet again. But I was not satiesfied I wanted everything like it used to be. i was always dreaming of this dream relationship in my head. I always thought okay maybe now I am not seeing it in my reality but that doesnt mean that it cant be in the future. I didnt realize that I fall in love in this imagination in my head and not in that person. I was addicted to the past expierence and thats why it was so hard for me to let go.


I told her today goodbye to end it once and for all.
It hurts because i invested so much time and energy in reconciling this. Its like ive lost. 

From a neutral perspective it shows me at least that my self esteem is important to me

[kuroshabedi]

So today i feel really good. I feel like i am on my right path and there are no obstacles anymore from my past. Additional I am now remembering all of my dreams a lot more and in detail. I think I am doing great

[fab10]

Way to go my friend! I’m very glad for you.

[kuroshabedi]

Way to go my friend! I’m very glad for you.

Thank you bro

[kuroshabedi]

Because the gym got closed again i bought some resistance bands to do some workouts at home every second day. 

-178cm and 80 kilos now. 

-no PMO day 13 (feeling horny as ... even a tree looks like a girl)

-eye contact improves day by day

-more respect by family day by day


I wish these 8 months would end quickly bcz I would love to start LTU

[reki]

I installed a porn blocker on my smartphone and even blocked social media to detox my mind and body. My first goal is 90 days.


Changes that i forgot: 

-I am not taking any kind of drugs since 3 months

-I gave up smoking since one month

-I started low carb diet (right now i am 83 kilos at 178cm my goal is to be 78 kilos)

what porn blocker do you recommend? One without ads preferably

[kuroshabedi]

I installed a porn blocker on my smartphone and even blocked social media to detox my mind and body. My first goal is 90 days.


Changes that i forgot: 

-I am not taking any kind of drugs since 3 months

-I gave up smoking since one month

-I started low carb diet (right now i am 83 kilos at 178cm my goal is to be 78 kilos)

what porn blocker do you recommend? One without ads preferably

I am using this: https://play.google.com/store/apps/detai...king.sites

I am using this because its free the other ones were only demo versions. Unfortunately it has ads but they appear only when you change something inside the app