08-21-2022, 12:25 AM
Day off 3, Cycle 3:
Funny Yesterday morning I was wondering if anything had happend, because I didn't had fear related dreams and stuff
But a few hours later,Out of nowhere decided to clean my house wich wasn't even that bad (even though I still haven't cleaned everything)
I also notice that I'm being impatient again and just want to get rid of my fears already and hop on to the next experience (sub) I know it's stupid because I'm only 3 cycles in, I think I just have this feeling of having to play catch up because I used my past experiences (subs) the wrong way..
I think I'm still beating myself up over that,So I was really glad I put more effort in cleaning up my house and becomming slightly less lazy..
I just have to let go of my Perfectionism and forgive myself for it...
I also noticed I'm more open to share my opinions with my friends..
Opinions that aren't possitive...
So Yeah I really need to continue learning to love my self and stop comparing myself to others (even to other forum members and wondering why I dont have such big noticeble results yet) (even though most of them are further in the experience to begin with)
Everyone is different to begin with and as long as I get results no matter how small I should be happy.
I really should learn to become more patient and remove the feeling of needing to play catchup..
Oh well it's only the 3rd cycle and we got 7 month's of this adventure I'm sure things will get better.
Funny Yesterday morning I was wondering if anything had happend, because I didn't had fear related dreams and stuff
But a few hours later,Out of nowhere decided to clean my house wich wasn't even that bad (even though I still haven't cleaned everything)
I also notice that I'm being impatient again and just want to get rid of my fears already and hop on to the next experience (sub) I know it's stupid because I'm only 3 cycles in, I think I just have this feeling of having to play catch up because I used my past experiences (subs) the wrong way..
I think I'm still beating myself up over that,So I was really glad I put more effort in cleaning up my house and becomming slightly less lazy..
I just have to let go of my Perfectionism and forgive myself for it...
I also noticed I'm more open to share my opinions with my friends..
Opinions that aren't possitive...
So Yeah I really need to continue learning to love my self and stop comparing myself to others (even to other forum members and wondering why I dont have such big noticeble results yet) (even though most of them are further in the experience to begin with)
Everyone is different to begin with and as long as I get results no matter how small I should be happy.
I really should learn to become more patient and remove the feeling of needing to play catchup..
Oh well it's only the 3rd cycle and we got 7 month's of this adventure I'm sure things will get better.
