07-17-2014, 09:26 AM
(07-17-2014, 09:12 AM)Natious Wrote: DAY 12:Today was tough, my toughest day yet with EPHRA. I felt so much hate towards everybody in the world, even my family. There was that spiral of thoughts that lead to that and I didn't like it one bit. I felt like I was stuck in life with no other way out than off the roof. I guess I have got myself a bit stuck, but I do know there are ways out other than the one my dad often promises to take.
That was some horrible pain that I put myself through. An absolutely shit day for me, 6-7 hour sleep at night probably didn't help. Toward the end of the day I started feeling better.
I want to get out, out from this house where nothing works and everyone thinks they're victims. I want to get to the point where I'm completely independent. I want to be free from feeling that slavery obligation.
Still considering between BASE and AM6: I am more thinking toward BASE, it has a better chance in helping me change my deeply installed "sidewalk" beliefs (reading The Millionaire Fastlane currently) and help me move toward financial freedom. Also if I will choose BASE, I will drop EPRHA since it's included in BASE.
EDIT: I just noticed that yesterday, on my 11th day, I made a post at 11:11. No clue what that means
The 11:11 is numerology and if you seen 11:11 on the 11th day then this is something special. "According to numerology the number 11 possesses the qualities of patience, honesty, spirituality, sensitivity, intuition and is idealistic. I have read on a website that seeing 11:11 can be viewed as a glitch in the matrix, it is a very real way for the spirit world to communicate with us. I don’t know if we will ever find out exactly what it means, I think you can decide for yourself what it means to you. I know I always get a smile on my face when I see it, it definitely makes me feel good and I love to share with others, ‘Hey look! It’s 11:11!’"
