12-17-2018, 08:25 AM
Thanks lano1106, DssMaster, Sanbosay and Shannon for advice. I very much appreciate it! I took your words to the heart and will keep you posted. To be honest I have low expectations, I just want to enjoy the moment and see where it leads me. And that might just be for the best.
DMSI 3.3D Day 11
I've screw up. Due to my troubles sleeping (hard to fall asleep, but once sleeping nothing could wake me up) I screwed my biological clock. On Sunday I woke up at 4 PM! So, instead of turning it back to morning hours I decided to skip one night. As I write this I'm awake for 25 hours, funnily enough I'm not terribly tired.
Despite sleep problems I think I start to accept DMSI, albeit slowly. I feel much less depressed and more motivated, more driven. We'll see how it continues but I start to think I won't have to force myself through the DMSI and that once resistance and fear and dealt with for good it will be quite an enjoyable ride!
DMSI 3.3D Day 11
I've screw up. Due to my troubles sleeping (hard to fall asleep, but once sleeping nothing could wake me up) I screwed my biological clock. On Sunday I woke up at 4 PM! So, instead of turning it back to morning hours I decided to skip one night. As I write this I'm awake for 25 hours, funnily enough I'm not terribly tired.
Despite sleep problems I think I start to accept DMSI, albeit slowly. I feel much less depressed and more motivated, more driven. We'll see how it continues but I start to think I won't have to force myself through the DMSI and that once resistance and fear and dealt with for good it will be quite an enjoyable ride!
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4