10-02-2016, 07:14 AM
Two things on my mind. First of all the date didn't happen, her grandpa died and she had to go to the funeral. Ok, it happens, it wasn't the first time when we had issues with aligning our time. What was very interesting for me is that she send me a photo of the death certificate as if she wanted to make sure I wasn't thinking she was bailing on me. Can't recall anything similar happening to me in the past that someone wanted to prove me there is a reason they can't make it.
Secondly yesterday I was at my female friend's to catch up and watch some movies. Our relationship is a story for another day, in short she's giving me lots of IOIs for some time now but I'm keeping her in friendzone. We ended up watching "V for Vendetta" (awesome movie, go watch it if you didn't!!) and after the movie she said something very interesting. "Even without a face a man can be sexy". That made me thinking later on. It is known that a man needs to have a mission to be attractive to women and I acknowledge that, but V is really a perfect example of the principle and he made me realize how important it is. How man with unwavering mission can have incredible presence. I still have a lot of work to do on that front.
I still have some anxieties, not sure if the sub is multiplying them or not but day off didn't help much so I'd assume is has little to do with the underlying problem. I've started listening to the sub during the sleep and I must admit I sleep well with it, have some crazy dreams but nothing out of ordinary and little to nothing about sex. I'm not sure if I'll continue to do that, sleep might be better for a rest than for a listening, but it's more consistent and I don't have to think about squeezing into my other activities.
Secondly yesterday I was at my female friend's to catch up and watch some movies. Our relationship is a story for another day, in short she's giving me lots of IOIs for some time now but I'm keeping her in friendzone. We ended up watching "V for Vendetta" (awesome movie, go watch it if you didn't!!) and after the movie she said something very interesting. "Even without a face a man can be sexy". That made me thinking later on. It is known that a man needs to have a mission to be attractive to women and I acknowledge that, but V is really a perfect example of the principle and he made me realize how important it is. How man with unwavering mission can have incredible presence. I still have a lot of work to do on that front.
I still have some anxieties, not sure if the sub is multiplying them or not but day off didn't help much so I'd assume is has little to do with the underlying problem. I've started listening to the sub during the sleep and I must admit I sleep well with it, have some crazy dreams but nothing out of ordinary and little to nothing about sex. I'm not sure if I'll continue to do that, sleep might be better for a rest than for a listening, but it's more consistent and I don't have to think about squeezing into my other activities.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
