07-21-2020, 02:10 PM
Day 51/52 (2/3)
I'm back in the city. I had to pretty much run away from my mom's as she was trying to make me stay there longer and I'm not up to that right now.
The NoFap streak didn't work and it's an interesting story. I pretty much woke up in the middle of the night shaking as if temperate in my room was at the water's freezing point. I don't know if I had erotic dream but I couldn't sleep and I was physically shaking, so I felt I needed to go the easy route. Afterwards I was too awake to go back to bed and shaking stopped and my mind was strangely clear. Anyhow, back on route for another streak.
I'm anything but easily dissuaded.
Still, down there somewhere I feel off. As if something was wrong with what I'm doing, the direction I'm heading. I hope the feeling of purpose I'll get once I get back to work will help me with this, staying at my mom's made me feel quite useless and now I don't even know where to start. That stupid feeling when there is so much to do you don't know where to start.
I'm back in the city. I had to pretty much run away from my mom's as she was trying to make me stay there longer and I'm not up to that right now.
The NoFap streak didn't work and it's an interesting story. I pretty much woke up in the middle of the night shaking as if temperate in my room was at the water's freezing point. I don't know if I had erotic dream but I couldn't sleep and I was physically shaking, so I felt I needed to go the easy route. Afterwards I was too awake to go back to bed and shaking stopped and my mind was strangely clear. Anyhow, back on route for another streak.
I'm anything but easily dissuaded.
Still, down there somewhere I feel off. As if something was wrong with what I'm doing, the direction I'm heading. I hope the feeling of purpose I'll get once I get back to work will help me with this, staying at my mom's made me feel quite useless and now I don't even know where to start. That stupid feeling when there is so much to do you don't know where to start.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
