06-09-2020, 12:00 PM
Day 9
I have found yet another clover on my walk. That makes like third symbol of luck for me but no luck when it comes to life. Oh well.
I don't even know if I believe in luck. I like the idea of making your own luck more. Or a sense that what one think is luck is in reality your Will springing things into actions, a little bit like Shannon explains it in his sub descriptions. Still, how can I make this kind of luck work when what I think I want is not happening and I'm not even certain what I want.
Two examples. One - weight loss. It's so frustrating that I cannot seem to lose more weight :/ I'm doing what I was doing in the winter and it just doesn't work anymore. Like I've gotten to a comfortable BMI 25 level and I won't get any lower, making me stuck with a little bit of fat.
Second - money. I was talking with my mom recently how I have more than enough money to feel safe and comfortable. I don't need to worry about my situation, a can afford pretty much anything I want to buy. I don't NEED more money so I don't try to make more money. I could make do with much less than I have right now. I think I'm scared that having more would make me... I don't know, different. There is this stigma around rich people and I think I don't wanna become like them, even though this is most likely a false picture.
Anyhow, I sure do hope that luck, now overcharged with 2 four leaf clovers, will come
I have found yet another clover on my walk. That makes like third symbol of luck for me but no luck when it comes to life. Oh well.
I don't even know if I believe in luck. I like the idea of making your own luck more. Or a sense that what one think is luck is in reality your Will springing things into actions, a little bit like Shannon explains it in his sub descriptions. Still, how can I make this kind of luck work when what I think I want is not happening and I'm not even certain what I want.
Two examples. One - weight loss. It's so frustrating that I cannot seem to lose more weight :/ I'm doing what I was doing in the winter and it just doesn't work anymore. Like I've gotten to a comfortable BMI 25 level and I won't get any lower, making me stuck with a little bit of fat.
Second - money. I was talking with my mom recently how I have more than enough money to feel safe and comfortable. I don't need to worry about my situation, a can afford pretty much anything I want to buy. I don't NEED more money so I don't try to make more money. I could make do with much less than I have right now. I think I'm scared that having more would make me... I don't know, different. There is this stigma around rich people and I think I don't wanna become like them, even though this is most likely a false picture.
Anyhow, I sure do hope that luck, now overcharged with 2 four leaf clovers, will come
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
