Mystic Life - LTU 5

[Mystic Pymp]

I had that same thing with using falling ill as an out from things I don't really want to do on some level. It seems to have went away for the most part after I located the source of this behavior when running UMS.

Funnily enough, among people of my profession, it's a *very* common tactic. It gives an excuse to one's peers when one's worried about giving a crappy performance. The audience doesn't give a rat's ass, nor should it, though.

Day 49

For me it comes down to way back in school days when I was very sickly child and often I'd use my overprotective parents to excuse me from writing tough exams for example. Nowadays it more probably comes down to both self-sabotage and also that when I'm stressed out I smoke more -> I get throat infection -> it spreads and I get sick. Anyways in the past 5 years or so I'd get sich about half the time before I needed to go somewhere. Funnily enough though if I feel like I MUST go there I will not get sick.

On the topic of smoking, my favorite brand got out of the circulation and so I had a choice on my hands - quit smoking cold turkey style, get used to another brand or try e-cigarettes. I tried option 2 with little success and so today I bought myself a set and, to be frank, it's not that great. I'll try this out, what my mistake was was that I chose liquid with too much nicotine and it's simply too strong for me. At any rate from what I've heard this is healthier, cheaper and does not smell badly to others so... we'll see. In the long run I'd like to throw all of this, e- or traditional, but for now it's a step in the right direction.