12-08-2019, 04:37 AM
Break (2)
It seems like I'm being pushed towards DMSI. A couple of days back (soon after the end of LTU run) I've had a dream where my friend was kissing me for a good half a minute in front of her fiance. I made me feel very awkward.
But what's more interesting is today's dream. I dreamed about my flatmate, she would start caressing me and at first I was reluctant and wanted her to go away. But then she grabbed me by my... stuff and found something hard in there, saying "You seem to enjoy it after all". An so I decided to go with it and making out with her.
Funny how in these dreams I seem so passive. It well reflects my current apathy towards sex and relationships while at the same time pointing out I can and I have options. It's just a case of going with it. Still it's time and energy investment, an investment that twice now proved worthless. When it rains it pours and I don't fance getting soaked again.
But again, some day I'll have to, right? Maybe better sooner than later?
BTW UMS looks nice, but if I were to choose I'd go with DMSI out of these two anyway. It's still DMSI vs LTU debate for me.
It seems like I'm being pushed towards DMSI. A couple of days back (soon after the end of LTU run) I've had a dream where my friend was kissing me for a good half a minute in front of her fiance. I made me feel very awkward.
But what's more interesting is today's dream. I dreamed about my flatmate, she would start caressing me and at first I was reluctant and wanted her to go away. But then she grabbed me by my... stuff and found something hard in there, saying "You seem to enjoy it after all". An so I decided to go with it and making out with her.
Funny how in these dreams I seem so passive. It well reflects my current apathy towards sex and relationships while at the same time pointing out I can and I have options. It's just a case of going with it. Still it's time and energy investment, an investment that twice now proved worthless. When it rains it pours and I don't fance getting soaked again.
But again, some day I'll have to, right? Maybe better sooner than later?
BTW UMS looks nice, but if I were to choose I'd go with DMSI out of these two anyway. It's still DMSI vs LTU debate for me.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
