05-27-2019, 04:27 PM
(05-22-2019, 02:58 PM)Mystic Pymp Wrote:(05-22-2019, 06:08 AM)Zane Wrote: Good too see that NoFap is one of your goal.
I have been on USLM3 for six months a d tbh the amount of progress on NoFap I have made is pretty satisfying than I have made in year. Its an 18 year old severe fapping addiction which is linked to my severe OCD so its good to see the amount of progress I have made.
Besides NoFap amplifies the result of the subs.. You can feel it.
In the book I'm reading right now there was an interesting case for free will. I won't get into details here but one important idea was that people are driven by their desires. Of course there is hierarchy of those. And it was argued that when someone acts against their desires, what happens in truth is they act in accordance to their more powerful desire, even if they don't recognize it at that time.
I mention it because this is exactly what I believe is going on right now. Imagine desire to eat. It's a powerful desire. However, even if you haven't eaten in 2 days you won't eat poisoned food because it might help with hunger, but it will also kill you. Desire to live is stronger than desire to eat. It's similar here - I want to masturbate, it's only human, it's pleasurable and great stress relief. However it has consequences and some stronger desires outweigh the weaker one. It's incredible that only now this desire is strong enough and it's scary that I'm not even sure what desire that is exactly? Desire to self improve? To find a proper relationship? I have no idea, it works somewhere in my subconscious and maybe with time and meditation I'll find it out.
What I find without a doubt is LTU is to be blamed for it. None of the DMSI versions could come even close to motivation and resolve I have now. With DMSI there were times I tried this with "strong will" approach, but it would always fail. Without proper mindset strong will is only as strong as it's weakest moment. The secret is to WANT to do (or to not do) things, not force oneself in the long run.
Notice how I'm not claiming masturbation is "bad" or "shameful" as you'd often read on some forums. It the "desire framework" for lack of better term there are no good or bad desires. There are only stronger and weaker ones. Even if desire is leading someone to self-destruction, well, they apparently want it and that is the beauty of free will. And I'm certainly not ashamed of doing it before.
As for "NoFap amplifies the result of the subs" I believe there is what I called positive feedback loop. I'm more confident so I lose weight so I have more resolve so I go NoFap and so on. One positive change can reinforce if not cause the next ones, just as it is the case with negative changes. And with what I notice I'm on a very good path.
I'm sure I will masturbate again one day. I will have weaker day or I will get unbearably horny for some reason. Mindset is not set in stone, it's flexible and dependent on emotions and other stuff which is hard to control. But this will happen orders of magnitude later than before LTU.
I understand what you are saying.. Channeling that desire from being something unproductive to productive. I am a different person on NoFap Streak..
