07-03-2021, 10:36 AM
Day 2 cont.
I'm having 1000 ideas per second but it all happening in the background is a drag. I feel like a computer that has all its RAM used up and it must run on SWAP on slow HDD. It's almost a torture, but also an interesting experience. I wish I could simply type "killall resistance" into the terminal though.
It becomes more and more obvious that my assumption about postponing my self-improvement work is void. During my LTU run I was content to let thing be and focus on more time-sensitive but at the same time purely external stuff. With OF this will not be an option. Sub is clearly pushing me in some directions and I either do them or feel like crap. I get this nice feeling of possibility, a familiar feeling as I had this before on other subs but also a feeling of responsibility.
This will take patience, willpower and diligence. At this point I'm not even sure what steps I'll have to take to be perfectly honest. But what I'm sure of is that action will need to be taken and I won't be able to sit idly for the next 3 months. And trust me, typing this and knowing what that means is harder than it sounds.
I'm having 1000 ideas per second but it all happening in the background is a drag. I feel like a computer that has all its RAM used up and it must run on SWAP on slow HDD. It's almost a torture, but also an interesting experience. I wish I could simply type "killall resistance" into the terminal though.
It becomes more and more obvious that my assumption about postponing my self-improvement work is void. During my LTU run I was content to let thing be and focus on more time-sensitive but at the same time purely external stuff. With OF this will not be an option. Sub is clearly pushing me in some directions and I either do them or feel like crap. I get this nice feeling of possibility, a familiar feeling as I had this before on other subs but also a feeling of responsibility.
This will take patience, willpower and diligence. At this point I'm not even sure what steps I'll have to take to be perfectly honest. But what I'm sure of is that action will need to be taken and I won't be able to sit idly for the next 3 months. And trust me, typing this and knowing what that means is harder than it sounds.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
