07-03-2022, 12:18 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-03-2022, 12:19 PM by Johannesbrst.)
I wanted to share a development that has been happening for the last week or so. I can't describe it, but it's like some kind of shift has happened, it's not obvious, at all, but just a feeling I have that something is going on. I suspect it's TID from OF.v4.
I went out this weekend, and did it all by myself. This is something I've thought about doing, but always had some blockage from actually doing, which I now with pretty good merit can attribute to fear. I still met some people I know and had a good time, but I had the feeling for maybe the first time that was "on my own", and was OK with it.
I didn't feel like people were looking at me like a looser for now being with friends, or at least I didn't pay any attention to that possible matter of fact. Instead I enjoyed myself, probably as much as I would have with friends. I'm still not fully there with conquering my fears, I still have issues toward approaching people, and sometime get nervous and put up a facade when talking to new people, which they often seem to sense, and putting a halt in the development of the encounter.
It's an interesting development, if it's caused by the TID from OF v.4 I'm looking forward listening to it "in real time" as well
I went out this weekend, and did it all by myself. This is something I've thought about doing, but always had some blockage from actually doing, which I now with pretty good merit can attribute to fear. I still met some people I know and had a good time, but I had the feeling for maybe the first time that was "on my own", and was OK with it.
I didn't feel like people were looking at me like a looser for now being with friends, or at least I didn't pay any attention to that possible matter of fact. Instead I enjoyed myself, probably as much as I would have with friends. I'm still not fully there with conquering my fears, I still have issues toward approaching people, and sometime get nervous and put up a facade when talking to new people, which they often seem to sense, and putting a halt in the development of the encounter.
It's an interesting development, if it's caused by the TID from OF v.4 I'm looking forward listening to it "in real time" as well
