My Musings (DMSI 3.2)

[maxx55]

It made sense to create this today instead of tomorrow due to my schedule. This will be my first time using DMSI without the clearing/healing, I'm looking forward to it.

Just a brief update. I've been eating vegan and even raw vegan foods primarily (still have grassfed beef). I've been doing IF because it got to the point that I just wanted to be super lean no matter what. Cravings for sweets and higher calorie foods still happen from time to time and have been slowing progress. But if I can keep consistent with my training and calorie/macro counting, I'll be single digit bodyfat next month. And GOD I'll be so happy to start lean bulking after that!

I'm slowly working on going to sleep earlier and waking up earlier. I definitely want more time in the day. With my training, classes, and having a late eating window, I often like the time I have to sleep but I'm working on it.

As I mentioned before, I'm not going to continue using 3.2 if has a negative effect on my quality of life. So if I feel depressed, tired, etc. and it doesn't go away in a week then I'm stopping. I have too much to do to have anything slow me down now.

I probably won't be posting here nearly as often as my previous journals. If something sticks out though, I'll definitely mention it. And if Shannon or anyone else have questions, I'll likely be open to answering.

I hope we don't have to do more than 2 hours of listening a day. I'd prefer to use my big bulky headphones in my room instead of out and about. I have some in-ear ones on the way from Indiegogo but they're taking a long ass time to ship.

On a side note, that Black Panther movie was AWESOME! I definitely recommend it if you like superhero movies at all. It was so good I'm buying all the Funko Pop figures including the limited and glow in the dark ones (and I always thought they were pointless to collect) because it was so good and the figures actually look great!

[maxx55]

11:45 PM

First official day of 3.2. Starting with trickling stream FLAC. Will go to hybrid in a few days to a week.

[Benjamin]

I loved Black Panter too. Went for 2 1/2 hours and it didn't feel like it dragged on or anything like some long movies.

[maxx55]

Just wanted to report this. Yesterday I did Trickling stream hybrid (still FLAC) and halfway through the track I felt turned on and felt like watching porn and fapping and I did, which usually doesn't happen that much at all nowadays. There seemed to be another level of enjoyment from doing it this time though. My energy and everything seems fine today though.

I will probably continue from this point on with hybrid.

[Benjamin]

Shannon put a module in there to close off that avenue, sounds like it's part of you trying to resist that.

[Zane]

Well its been two days and I don't really expect anyone to stop busting their nuts in two days.

I guess ur subconscious saw how bad ass the script was to stop u from fapping and watching porn, so it tired it best to make u do those and make it more pleasurable at New level...

I think as the scripts gets ingrained in ur mind it will not be the case anymore.. Maybe after 10 days or so u will know.

Keep us updated

[maxx55]

Will post an update in a few days. Making a note to self that I missed my loop on 2/28.

[maxx55]

There are a few things that stood out in my mind this week. In the gym, guys would initiate convo with me and actually have a solid convo not like a quick "oh, how many sets you have left?" but like talking about the gym and nutrition and things along those lines. It happened too many times in a short span to ignore. At Walmart, when I went to pickup an item, the cashier had a convo with me. We both had the iPhone X so that's what she mainly talked about. It was more involved than necessary for the job. I'm guessing these are moments when the celebrity effect is assisting. Outside of those, nothing different in my classes which is where I thought I'd see an obvious difference.

For some reason, I've passed by or seen a lot of girls I use to be interested in and one that I currently am. It's odd to have seen all of them in a short time. Nothing else besides happening to see them though.

I seem to feel more comfortable with feeling horny. Sexual thoughts come to me a bit more often, but I don't feel "tortured" by having a sex drive at the moment. I think my penis is more sensitive since starting the program and that's why masturbating feels better than I remember. PMO'd again this morning, but I'm fine.

There was a girl I met days before actually starting 3.2, she seemed glad to exchange numbers with me and I thought it was clear that I talked to her because I intended to have some kind of sexual connection with her as I told her I found her attractive (and I never ever directly say anything like that). Plus she lives on the floor right below me, I thought it'd be perfect that we're 30 seconds away from each other. She's gone dark, not replying to texts after suggesting a meetup. I felt super irritated about it, but I've gotten past that faster than I usually would. At this point, when I look in the mirror and think about how far I've come in my journey, I honestly feel that a girl to do what she did (show interest and then go without any explanation) is stupid.

I've really been curious about the average girl's sex drive. I honestly can't think of any reason why a girl would give a guy her number who lived in the same building and not want to have sex with him, unless the sex drive isn't there. I've always heard that girls want it more than guys, but just in talking with my male roommates, I don't think I've found anyone that feels sex drive as intensely as I do. I don't believe that I've met a girl ever that feels that the way I do, because I don't have any evidence for it. That may just be me though.

I'm now starting to stop asking what's wrong with me all the time. I see that there's nothing at all that's wrong with me. I'm not perfect, I'm not like most of the people I know, and sometimes it's difficult to understand what others are thinking and feeling but that doesn't mean there's something wrong.

That's it for this week. I really feel like 3.2 is a step in the right direction. It'll take more time for me to fully ingrain it, but I can tell it's a decent step. Or maybe it's because this is my first time running DMSI without the healing and clearing.

[maxx55]

Two things need to be noted. As of right now, yes I do start my day off with an apple cider drink and cold brew coffee. I forgot to mention this. I have some chaga for chaga tea which is caffeine free, but I'm going to finish off the coffee first which could take a couple weeks. I didn't have the coffee before my class today, instead I had cacao tea and I didn't notice difference.

Also wanted to note that today is the first day I had a headache while on the program. It may have been because I started eating later than usual, not sure. It did start after I started my loop though.

[maxx55]

So I can definitely say that since starting 3.2, I’ve been acting on impulse a lot more. I’ve been making purchases on impulse more often, but I still sensibly think before I do. Like if I see a great deal, I’m way more likely to buy it than to think “Oh, I’ll see it for this price later”. I’ve been acting on impulse when it comes to feeling horny by watching porn and masturbating. It feels more natural now to do it than it did prior to 3.2. I’ve been having food cravings more often, not all sweets and stuff. Yeah, I’ve been craving pizza, brownies, chocolate, and ice cream, but also things like sandwiches, wraps. It’s more frequent than it was pre 3.2. Honestly, I’m glad with all this impulsive behavior that I haven’t been angry at anyone recently.

Also, is it possible for the aura to affect only select people in an area? If one girl that I’m somewhat attracted to seems to behave differently, then shouldn’t girls I find more attractive respond noticeably in some way? That would make sense. Throughout the week I’ve literally been wondering where the horny girls are lol, I sure don’t know.

Aside from that, my performance in the gym is still improving and I’m looking better and better and the days pass, but this was the case before 3.2. I also want to note that 3.2 doesn’t keep me awake if I listen right before going to sleep and it doesn’t cloud my mind at all while listening to it. Previous DMSI versions wouldn’t let me focus and get any work done while listening to it, I’d have to strategically plan when I could listen, but 3.2 is much better about that.

And lastly, yesterday I forgot to listen to the loop again. I’m setting a daily reminder to listen from now on. I had time to yesterday, it literally just slipped my mind because of all I had to do.

[maxx55]

Switched to masked version last week. The impulsiveness has slowed down.

Last week I had really strong cravings so for most of the week I ate pure junk food. Handmade pan pizzas from Domino's, cookies, brownie-cookies. I ate like 4-6 pizzas last week, two cookie brownies (first one wasn't perfect so a part of me wasn't satisfied), the cookie brownie from dominos...it was crazy. I was even still eating leftovers yesterday. During the week, my sleep wasn't the best and I was getting noticeably bloated. Got decent sleep last night, woke up today with practically all bloat gone and no noticeable gain in fat. I'm kinda surprised to be honest. It could have been something else, but given my past experiences, I'm leaning more towards DMSI preventing fat gain. And that's awesome Of course, I don't plan on doing this again though.

Besides that, I haven't noticed anything else beneficial yet...actually maybe some nicer treatment. But it was stuff that was all over remote communication. Is it possible for it to have any kind of VIP/celebrity effect long distance/over the internet for discounts? If it is, then I'll say this helped with that as well. But that's it so far.

[maxx55]

Note to self: forgot to listen yesterday.

At the moment, I don't think the aura is kicking in at all. I've been around too many girls and haven't seen anything even remotely consistent. I do intermittent fasting, but even during the time I'm eating, there's nothing noticeably different. Even on the days I go to class and pass on the coffee, nothing noticeably different. I just noticed that my impulses are stronger, all of them. Perhaps my luck has improved, but it's not relating to the goal of the sub so it might be completely unrelated.

It's been like that for a little bit now. Urges for porn/certain types of girls are stronger. And due to the situation, it most of the time results in me watching porn and fapping. It's not a constant thing, it's an urge that's gotten stronger when it hits me just like the rest of my urges.

Until something changes or until I decide to stop the sub, I'll leave this as the most recent update. Perhaps I should go back from masked to hybrid. But then, my urges were even stronger than they are now on masked.

[wolverine_i_am]

I tried masked for a bit, but I'm sticking to hybrid now, simply because it's just stronger brutal force.

I don't think doing intermittent fasting or not makes any difference for me. I'm still getting tons of attraction regardless while fasting. But then again, I'm on semen retention and I've been on hard mode for quite a while now.

[maxx55]

I probably won't update for a little bit as it seems like my schedule is going to get busier for a while.

In short, I don't think 3.2 cuts it. I've been doing masked because of my schedule and not being able to get the time in each day for hybrid. My new earphones that are portable and capable of handling the hybrid started getting problems last week so I need to return them. My older ones that I've been using can only do masked. Maybe next month I can use my clunky headphones when I have a little more time to.

The reason I say 3.2 hasn't been cutting it is because even before 3.2, just from my training and what I'm doing myself, straight male friends have complimented me. It doesn't happen often, but every now and then. The thing is, it happens much more often than girls complimenting me. Even now that I'm on the program. This just makes it seem to me that it's not doing anything at all.

The impulse behavior from 3.2 calmed down noticeably once I started adding in adaptogens to my daily nutrition. So drink chaga tea and have rhodiola rosea every day. It has definitely made a positive difference regarding the impulses.

Even if other parts of the program are possibly doing something, I'm not able to consistently notice it because the only real difference that I'd perceive was if I was having sex or not. At this point in my life, unless the girl is an expert in my field, the only value she can really have to me is sex. I already have female friends, some are knowledgeable, others not as much. And I'm already working on being fully self-sufficient without my parents. Sex is the only thing that I don't know how to provide for myself.

And this month I'm focusing on getting myself established. I have to do this as quickly as possible due to my situation. So that's the focus. I'll keep listening to DMSI, but unless the hybrid is a quantum leap or two ahead of the masked, it's definitely not there yet.

Side note: stopped my cutting and started bulking because cutting was giving major diminishing returns at this point. I'm going to stay lean on the bulk too. Really upping my frequency to get into awesome shape