Day 13-16
I'm quite suffering these past two days—scarcity mentality, unrequited love, jealousy, fear of aging, fear of being lonely, no woman shows special attention, people respect me too much, no approach, my life's logistics sucks—Internet, transportation, my things are in a mess... I'm too serious. I can't even smile at people. People don't smile at me. I don't feel connected to anyone. What's worse, I'm reverting back to some paraphilic fantasies.
Last Saturday, however, I sarged in the mall with a young PUA acquaintance. We didn't have the best results, but we kept on motivating each other, sort of we're no longer leaving this lifestyle. We talked, not just about women, but also business. He encouraged me to start a Facebook group for people who are interested in business and investing. I just did yesterday.
I was surprised when some interesting guy approached me in the bookstore to enthusiastically discuss ideas, which I thought I was the only one interested within my circle — economics, power, psychology, sales, business, etc. Unexpected circumstances like this rekindles the life in me, but I still want social and sexual relationship with beautiful women, which seems to be the ultimate spring of happiness in this boring life. I can't help, I want them badly. But in the moment, it seems no one pops up.
I'll just be busy with my new Facebook group.
I'm quite suffering these past two days—scarcity mentality, unrequited love, jealousy, fear of aging, fear of being lonely, no woman shows special attention, people respect me too much, no approach, my life's logistics sucks—Internet, transportation, my things are in a mess... I'm too serious. I can't even smile at people. People don't smile at me. I don't feel connected to anyone. What's worse, I'm reverting back to some paraphilic fantasies.
Last Saturday, however, I sarged in the mall with a young PUA acquaintance. We didn't have the best results, but we kept on motivating each other, sort of we're no longer leaving this lifestyle. We talked, not just about women, but also business. He encouraged me to start a Facebook group for people who are interested in business and investing. I just did yesterday.
I was surprised when some interesting guy approached me in the bookstore to enthusiastically discuss ideas, which I thought I was the only one interested within my circle — economics, power, psychology, sales, business, etc. Unexpected circumstances like this rekindles the life in me, but I still want social and sexual relationship with beautiful women, which seems to be the ultimate spring of happiness in this boring life. I can't help, I want them badly. But in the moment, it seems no one pops up.
I'll just be busy with my new Facebook group.
"I am developing into a high value Alpha Male..."
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