Day 4
Here's my results for today. Should I mention that that girl who dumped me, after some time, texted me today? Asked me a favor—work related, so that's not counted. One of my bosses made me feel quite bad, saying I made my female colleagues felt awkward yesterday when I introduce them to a friend who acts so weird in front of pretty girls, told me not to hangout with him again. But later, I realized he's just acting hypocrite.
I didn't feel like going to the gym a while ago, I kinda felt like just staying on my bed acting emotional because that girl who dumped me seems to have found another guy she'd have as boyfriend. I had a 5 month oneitis with her, so that's not quite easy. Anyway, I fantasized about her and masturbated. It was a dark fantasy though, which made me feel bad about myself later. I then asked the universe to bless her with a guy who'll truly love and serve her. Then I told myself, if I won't go the gym today, I'd really feel like a complete loser, so I stood and went out of the house.
Something made my day. I earlier asked the universe that that girl who dumped me might at least add me on Facebook, because I won't do that for her after the treatment she gave me. It wasn't her who added me today, but one of the 3 prettiest girls in the school where I work. I'm not a teacher, but I often catch this pretty girl staying usually near where I am. One time, she waved her hand to get my attention, and turned away fast. We saw each other accidentally a while ago, and then, after a brief eye contact, she walked away fast, like a shy girl. I can't help but appear serious in front of them. Because though her features are quite advanced for her age, I won't game a minor. It's just having lived alone for two years, the attention I get from these young teenagers kind of uplift my spirit, and prevent me from depressing.
While waiting for the bus, a 9-year old girl neighbor sat beside me and talked to me for the first time. She mentioned her cousins, her school, etc. She told me, I look like a principal, which is quite offensive if it didn't come from a kid. Anyway, she made my day too.
I made eye contact with 3 pretty tall college students (college students here are usually 16-20 year olds). One of them wears a rabbit headband and has a tiger skin bag, she looks huggable. She gave me 3 looks, and the second was a curious look. I gave her a tired make-a-face. She immediately turned her face away, but I saw her look again for the third time, smiling, so what was that? However, I hesitated to start a conversation, I kinda want it to appear natural. Next time, though, I should smile more often when girls do that to me.
The first girl I made eye contact with though is really beautiful, but very tall. I don't usually get attracted to very tall girls. She sat beside me in the bus, I took some food from my bag and ate. Then, suddenly, a 10-year old kid begged for my food. I thought, this might be a blessing, so we both entertained the kid. When I did some jokes with the kid, she and her friend laughed politely. I soon was asking her questions out of the blue, small talks. I just noticed she's too polite, do I look that old? Anyway, I gave my food to the kid, while agreeing with her that it might not be a good idea. I just replied, "She reminds me of my younger sister." She later unfolded a tarp with a photo of a very cute girl, I asked, "Is she your little sister? She looks like you." Her friend agreed. But she's still too polite, so I just let the two talk with each other.
I soon got off and left them, because I found out I left my phone in the gym. While waiting for the bus going home, I made eye contact with a cute college student. I like it when I see purely positive aura from a girl I'm having eye contact with. But anyway, I was the one who turned away first, and then, I smiled like a girl. What the fuck! I'll practice gaming this Saturday.
Here's my results for today. Should I mention that that girl who dumped me, after some time, texted me today? Asked me a favor—work related, so that's not counted. One of my bosses made me feel quite bad, saying I made my female colleagues felt awkward yesterday when I introduce them to a friend who acts so weird in front of pretty girls, told me not to hangout with him again. But later, I realized he's just acting hypocrite.
I didn't feel like going to the gym a while ago, I kinda felt like just staying on my bed acting emotional because that girl who dumped me seems to have found another guy she'd have as boyfriend. I had a 5 month oneitis with her, so that's not quite easy. Anyway, I fantasized about her and masturbated. It was a dark fantasy though, which made me feel bad about myself later. I then asked the universe to bless her with a guy who'll truly love and serve her. Then I told myself, if I won't go the gym today, I'd really feel like a complete loser, so I stood and went out of the house.
Something made my day. I earlier asked the universe that that girl who dumped me might at least add me on Facebook, because I won't do that for her after the treatment she gave me. It wasn't her who added me today, but one of the 3 prettiest girls in the school where I work. I'm not a teacher, but I often catch this pretty girl staying usually near where I am. One time, she waved her hand to get my attention, and turned away fast. We saw each other accidentally a while ago, and then, after a brief eye contact, she walked away fast, like a shy girl. I can't help but appear serious in front of them. Because though her features are quite advanced for her age, I won't game a minor. It's just having lived alone for two years, the attention I get from these young teenagers kind of uplift my spirit, and prevent me from depressing.
While waiting for the bus, a 9-year old girl neighbor sat beside me and talked to me for the first time. She mentioned her cousins, her school, etc. She told me, I look like a principal, which is quite offensive if it didn't come from a kid. Anyway, she made my day too.
I made eye contact with 3 pretty tall college students (college students here are usually 16-20 year olds). One of them wears a rabbit headband and has a tiger skin bag, she looks huggable. She gave me 3 looks, and the second was a curious look. I gave her a tired make-a-face. She immediately turned her face away, but I saw her look again for the third time, smiling, so what was that? However, I hesitated to start a conversation, I kinda want it to appear natural. Next time, though, I should smile more often when girls do that to me.
The first girl I made eye contact with though is really beautiful, but very tall. I don't usually get attracted to very tall girls. She sat beside me in the bus, I took some food from my bag and ate. Then, suddenly, a 10-year old kid begged for my food. I thought, this might be a blessing, so we both entertained the kid. When I did some jokes with the kid, she and her friend laughed politely. I soon was asking her questions out of the blue, small talks. I just noticed she's too polite, do I look that old? Anyway, I gave my food to the kid, while agreeing with her that it might not be a good idea. I just replied, "She reminds me of my younger sister." She later unfolded a tarp with a photo of a very cute girl, I asked, "Is she your little sister? She looks like you." Her friend agreed. But she's still too polite, so I just let the two talk with each other.
I soon got off and left them, because I found out I left my phone in the gym. While waiting for the bus going home, I made eye contact with a cute college student. I like it when I see purely positive aura from a girl I'm having eye contact with. But anyway, I was the one who turned away first, and then, I smiled like a girl. What the fuck! I'll practice gaming this Saturday.
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