I'm feeling envious of these attractive guys/girls who get tons of likes for each of their narcissistic posts on Facebook. It seems attractiveness comes naturally for them. (This insecure feeling is quite similar to those turbulent times I had in my early teens.)
I keep comparing myself with others--former friends who are now successful and famous, younger guys in the community who date/lay girls often, attractive women, etc. I'm even comparing my current self with my former self--such a fool, had chances to lay girls but he did not 'coz it bugged his conscience. They once looked up to me. How come I now seem like a loser?
Little by little, I'm becoming convinced that I've experienced an entirely different world growing up. My interests were intellectual, academic, practical and unconventional/non-mainstream stuff. While these considered-likeable people merely rant about shallow ideas, with grammar errors, and yet they get all these visceral attention. Maybe, I'm an undiagnosed autistic for being so studious. Beautiful girls don't like to hear rational ideas, and yet that's where I'd built my persona.
Okay, let's turn this negativity around. It seems I'm wanting to attract a larger and warmer positive attention online. That will take enormous amount of networking on my part, but that goal is possible. How will I do that? I'm giving myself 6 months.
I keep comparing myself with others--former friends who are now successful and famous, younger guys in the community who date/lay girls often, attractive women, etc. I'm even comparing my current self with my former self--such a fool, had chances to lay girls but he did not 'coz it bugged his conscience. They once looked up to me. How come I now seem like a loser?
Little by little, I'm becoming convinced that I've experienced an entirely different world growing up. My interests were intellectual, academic, practical and unconventional/non-mainstream stuff. While these considered-likeable people merely rant about shallow ideas, with grammar errors, and yet they get all these visceral attention. Maybe, I'm an undiagnosed autistic for being so studious. Beautiful girls don't like to hear rational ideas, and yet that's where I'd built my persona.
Okay, let's turn this negativity around. It seems I'm wanting to attract a larger and warmer positive attention online. That will take enormous amount of networking on my part, but that goal is possible. How will I do that? I'm giving myself 6 months.
"I am developing into a high value Alpha Male..."
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