Maximum Learning - Journal

[Zane]

I dont even know what happening to me anymore. Its like its outside my awareness. Still in HC

[Zane]

You know something guys. I love playing this sub. Idk why.. I just love it.

[Zane]

Seriously I don't know who I am becoming into. But let me tell you this I am becoming into something which I think I is necessary for me to move forward in life.

From and Impulsive brat who used to analyse people and read their each and every move. I am becoming into someone who doesn't even care what other people are upto. I won't say that I am learning all stuff at speed of light. Infact my concentration still waves and is still pretty fucked up but I see that MLS-5.5G is fixing my or rebuilding my core foundation which was fucked up ever since I became conscious. My ADHD personality+loneliness +Bad childhood in school was enough to fuck me for years and never became any better.. I always used to think that I was special but I guess I was wrong and only said that to make myself feel better.. .

Brainfog is still there which causes problem understanding stuff
I still feel as if I am not able to absorb information and it is due to brainfog.
Motivation isnt there but I do stuff which I think I should do. But when it comes down to studying..Brainfog and lack focus lets me down...

I consciously am still focused on my goals and things I need to learn in life in order to grow and succeed

Right Now I am not taking any supplements.. But sometimes I feel I should take atleast Bapoca.. But I don't.

I am gonna use this MLS-5.5G for as long as I can. Until I Shannon releases STMA 5.5G.

[Zane]

I havnt played MLS-5.5G in past two days. Idk what is happening but I can't focus on my text book even for a minute. Its so difficult. I just can't focus. Sometimes I feel that it won't get fixed at all. Idk how to explain all this but in short I feel hopelessness. .

I didn't play MLS-5.5G for two days cause I was nervous and scared Idk of what. Maybe my subconscious is terrified of this deep change. But I am back on MLS-5.5G. I am just not used to this tech. Its way too powerful.

My sister is a prime example of MLS-5G and how it transformed her. Watching her gives me hope that I can be like her. Even better.

[Benjamin]

Interesting, I was gonna ask compared to DMSI but then realized you haven't done it.

Being nervous and scared of putting the program on is a definite fear response. I've had times of wanting to stop on most programs but mainly what's kept me going is just the habit of turning it on when I goto bed.

[Zane]

I have been suffering from mental fatigue for a long time and even though I am using MLS-5.5G. I still don't have that much of mental stamina.. I can definitely tell that this cause of my chronic masturbation problem. Whenever I read day 4 of NoFap. I notice that my focus gets better. Before it would take like 9 days now its down to 4 days.. . But the thing is that. I am not able to go more than 5 days. So as soon as I reach day 5 i fap away...

This is really a problem. Although with MLS 5.5G I have noticed that my will to control my fapping desire has gotten better. But I still think that. My chronic fapping for past 15 years has done so much damage that I need atleast few days off. To heal my brain but I am not able to do so.. .

Anyway I have no choice but to continue with MLS-5.5G as STMA isn't upgraded yet. But everything is going according to plan.... Patiently waiting for Shannon to do something about it.

[Nox]

Try rewarding yourself.

"If I go 7 days without masturbation I'll allow myself 4 hours of watching porn and can masturbate all I want within that time period guilt free.".

You know your vice, so use it for growth.

That's just an example. Find the sweet spot where you can use your issue to help you resolve the issue and achieve other goals along the way.

[Roy]

Try rewarding yourself.

"If I go 7 days without masturbation I'll allow myself 4 hours of watching porn and can masturbate all I want within that time period guilt free.".

You know your vice, so use it for growth.

That's just an example. Find the sweet spot where you can use your issue to help you resolve the issue and achieve other goals along the way.

Another reward will be better.This one can bring back the addiction.

[Nox]

Try rewarding yourself.

"If I go 7 days without masturbation I'll allow myself 4 hours of watching porn and can masturbate all I want within that time period guilt free.".

You know your vice, so use it for growth.

That's just an example. Find the sweet spot where you can use your issue to help you resolve the issue and achieve other goals along the way.

Another reward will be better.This one can bring back the addiction.

I agree that it would be most beneficial to use another reward, but sometimes you need to use less than optimal to get over some bad obstacles.

I would never say using weed is a good idea, but I've known addicts who were able to successfully avoid a heroin relapse by using weed short term. Not always and it isn't the best idea, but it's better than a relapse.

Everything is conditional. If you cant go more than 5 days without masturbation then you need to get downright sneaky and use some rule breaking tricks to get into a better place.

This is all just my opinion and I admit I could be wrong.

[JackOfHearts]

I have been suffering from mental fatigue for a long time and even though I am using MLS-5.5G. I still don't have that much of mental stamina.. I can definitely tell that this cause of my chronic masturbation problem. Whenever I read day 4 of NoFap. I notice that my focus gets better. Before it would take like 9 days now its down to 4 days.. . But the thing is that. I am not able to go more than 5 days. So as soon as I reach day 5 i fap away...

This is really a problem. Although with MLS 5.5G I have noticed that my will to control my faping desire has gotten better. But I still think that. My chronic fapping for past 15 years has done so much damage that I need atleast few days off. To heal my brain but I am not able to do so.. .

Anyway I have no choice but to continue with MLS-5.5G as STMA isn't upgraded yet. But everything is going according to plan.... Patiently waiting for Shannon to do something about it.

Fapping once every 5 days shouldn't cause any mental fatigue. I have mental fatigue too, I have it since using 5.5 subs, on 5G it was a bit less.
I don't think fapping everyday should cause any problem with someone healthy either, I would say when you do it 3 times a day or more it can cause problems.

There is one thing I think cause more energy drain than fapping, it's eating too much bad food. Digesting food use more vital energy than sex.
See how tired you are after eating compared to fapping.

[Zane]

Well whatever the case is. I will deal with this in future when STMA - 5.5 G is out.

I have noticed that I am finding myself thinking more about stuff that I think should learn in order to improve myself. Infact I see that it may take me 2- 3 years to accomplish all that. Which included getting a little meat on my body as I am Skinny, also it's related to my career, health.. I mean Everything I ever wanted to learn and which would help me grow.

Also I find myself getting bored of procrastination. Its like I don't find procrastination that enjoying. Instead I try to study. But the thing is that whenever I try to study. I experience a headache. Which I think is a sign that soon something good is gonna happen..

[Determined]

Hey man, I'm on day 2 of MLS 5.5 and I've already undergone some serious brain detox in the addictions department. How's your masturbation problem going and have you found MLS 5.5 helping you remove it?

I know too much masturbation causes brain fog which would make it a valid target for h/c

[Zane]

Hey man, I'm on day 2 of MLS 5.5 and I've already undergone some serious brain detox in the addictions department. How's your masturbation problem going and have you found MLS 5.5 helping you remove it?

I know too much masturbation causes brain fog which would make it a valid target for h/c

MLS 5.5G is helping me control my masturbation addiction. I am on day 6. I usually can't go 2 days. But I can now control it. It's healing and clearing in MLS-5.5G that's doing all this... If MLS-5.5G can do this. Imagine what STMA 5.5G will be capable of.. Kinda excited. Have been on IML since 2013 to cure this.. I am starting to see hope.

[Determined]

Hey man, I'm on day 2 of MLS 5.5 and I've already undergone some serious brain detox in the addictions department. How's your masturbation problem going and have you found MLS 5.5 helping you remove it?

I know too much masturbation causes brain fog which would make it a valid target for h/c

MLS 5.5G is helping me control my masturbation addiction. I am on day 6. I usually can't go 2 days. But I can now control it. It's healing and clearing in MLS-5.5G that's doing all this... If MLS-5.5G can do this. Imagine what STMA 5.5G will be capable of.. Kinda excited. Have been on IML since 2013 to cure this.. I am starting to see hope.

Awesome news! Very happy for you rapid progress. What's the longest you've ever gone without it?