Maximum Learning - Journal

[Zane]

Shannon, can you please explain us the stages that we'll go trough during MLS 5.5g?
You meant that there will be different steps before fully executing the program

Well I'm not sure I'd call them "stages". Basically, you will most likely experience the following, roughly in order.

1. Initial impact. This may range from almost no response for resistant pains in the butt to "Holy cow, I'm limitless!" You may also experience detoxing effects and an increased need for sleep.
2. Throttle back. This is after initial impact and results because the clearing & healing starts to kick in and take focus. You may also experience detoxing and brain adjustment effects, increased hunger over normal and increased need for sleep.
3. Healing & Clearing. During this period, the focus is of course on healing and clearing, and you may experience all the goodies that go with it. Learning, etc. may be present or may not. It will depend on how much you are focused in H&C and how much you are trying to resist the process. During this time. You may also experience detoxing and brain adjustment effects, increased hunger over normal and increased need for sleep.
4. Maximum Learning Speed & Focus. This is where the rubber meets the road. This is where the BS has been cleared out, and you're now free to ride down that highway you bought the program to ride down. This may take time to gear up, as the brain may be healing and optimizing for months. I would expect that the program would need 3 to 9 months to finish brain healing and optimizing. During this phase, you will become accustomed to higher intellectual capacity, greater acuity of awareness, faster thinking and processing abilities and better memory and processing abilities than you had before, and it may seem as if you have always been able to do this. You may also experience increased hunger over normal, and increased (but lessening) need for sleep.

[Zane]

Well Idk why I respond to sub so slowly but I can't blame the sub cause if u really ask me the only sub I have listened to for healing is OF-5G. I am sure that if I had used E2 or DMSI then I am pretty sure that I would have been in much better emotional state..

Aside from that well I am still going thru detox and I am eating alot. This isn't a day I wanna go hungry. I sleep for like 10-11 hours cause I get so tired.

Things I Noticed :

Losing interest in surfing internet..

Don't wanna eat sweet stuff like Chocolate.

I feel like I am really busy but Idk what I am busy with..

Slight increase in focus but that fluctuate

Slight increase in memory as I can recall stuff that I read in my text book previously.

No Increase in motivation Infact its pretty low.. Which is what happens when u r in H&C stage.

Sometimes feels hopeless and anxiety kicks in and I think of changing sub but I let those feelings pass.

Having dreams related to sex and girls.. Healing at work i guess

[Zane]

Right now I feel like Shit.
Hopelessness.
Sad and depressed.
Feel low and pathetic.
I just wanna go to bed and sleep cause I feel my life is so miserable

[Shannon]

That is a very interesting response to "Ultra Success", "Positive Thinking/Positive Attitude", "Winner" and "You Can Do Anything" programming, my friend. Is it resistance reversal, or are you simply clearing and healing?

[Zane]

That is a very interesting response to "Ultra Success", "Positive Thinking/Positive Attitude", "Winner" and "You Can Do Anything" programming, my friend. Is it resistance reversal, or are you simply clearing and healing?

Well for past 2-3 days I was having thoughts of changing subs but I passed and didn't act on them. My Resistance is mostly based on anxiety. In which I feel that if I used this particular sub then my life would change and everything will be good and okay. . But it's just an illusion shown to me by my subconscious.

Today I woke up and had these thoughts about changing sub but Idk what happened it all tuned in sad and depressed. I feel as if I am a looser and haven't accomplished anything in life. I was depressed to I consciously told myself that it must be H&C so I went for a nap for 2 hours and when I woke up. I hear my younger brother talking to his friend about some technical stuff and I had this thought the my friends and my brother everyone is successful, knowledgeable and here I am good for nothing... I feel like crying..

[Zane]

I feel opposite of US, PT, YCDA. I think detox phase is over cause I dont feel that much tired and also washroom trips have decreased. It feels like H&C. I never felt like this for past 20 days ever since I am running MLS. I am too sad to focus or anything. :c

[Shannon]

Whatever the case is... resistance or H&C or both...

"When you find yourself going through hell, keep going." -- Sir Winston Churchill

[Zane]

I feel so fucking lazy

My sleep timing has disturbed again. MLS-5.5G fixed that in first two weeks but now its messed up again.

I don't feel like talking or socialising with anyone. Both in real and internet.

I have been eating alot.

I feel like sleeping alot. But I get tired of sleeping also..

[DarkPlouf]

Right now I feel like Shit.
Hopelessness.
Sad and depressed.
Feel low and pathetic.
I just wanna go to bed and sleep cause I feel my life is so miserable
...
I feel so ***** lazy.
I feel like sleeping alot. But I get tired of sleeping also.

That was me most of the time under DMSI. It was so bad that sometimes I was questioning my life purpose.
I hope you'll overcome it quickly. The euphoria that DMSI induced helped me thought, as well as doing some metta meditation.

[Zane]

Idk what day it is i guess 25 or something.

I have never felt this sad its like I am back in depression before I started OF-5G. I feel as if I have no hope and can't be successful in life. These negative feeling are eating me. I did have thoughts about suicide but it's just a thought. I thought I would never ever have to face these feelings again. This is the 3 week and I am so miserable. I am spending most of my time in room. While my bro and sister are watching movies. I have no have no interest in it. They laugh and I think what's so funny about this.... I am so depressed that I fap to escape it but it doesn't help..

It's not like I am gonna stop playing the sub. I will keep on playing it but Idk how will i survive thru all this shitty feeling... I have my books in from of me but i can't focus.. I start feeling dizzy when I try to...

[Zane]

Man this is such a roller-ride. Sometimes I can focus for 30 mins straight and sometimes I won't be able to concentrate for even 5 second. I really hope that it's all worth it in the end.

Motivation is what I need and if can get that that I can overcome any obstacles.

[Zane]

Started Taking "Now True Focus". Lets see how I respond to that

[Shannon]

You are taking something for focus, while using a program for focus. Great, now you will have no idea which one is doing what.

[Zane]

Nearing 30 days. Starting to see some results. Focus is the that beat but I can manage 45 min of focus if I am motivated. Before MLS-5.5G 5-10 mins of focus was all I had. This is what happens when u have ADHD and u are hitting within MDD which lasts for 7 years.