03-01-2015, 03:20 AM
Day 78:
I'm still full of fear / anxiety.
I'm still having regular anxiety attacks and feelings of impending doom and gloom (I've been having these for years, since a young age).
Guilt / Shame seem to have been more or less beaten / aren't noticeable, which is nice. But Fear is still as intense, as it always was (or that's the way it seems).
I've been having plenty of nightmares.
Some of my nightmares have included:
- Running and hiding from my friends, since they were trying to kill me.
- Visiting one of my friends, and he had 3 tigers as pets, and they were stalking me and really looked like they wanted to eat me. I locked myself in my friend's room, and the door was banging, and the hinges started falling off, and claws were starting to come through the door.
- Getting fined / jailed for stuff I didn't do (being framed, etc.)
I also wake up most mornings feeling like I've had a nightmare (or more), but without remembering what the topic was.
I hope this is a sign that my fear is being slowly overcome.
I definitely have a LONG way to go.
I'm still full of fear / anxiety.
I'm still having regular anxiety attacks and feelings of impending doom and gloom (I've been having these for years, since a young age).
Guilt / Shame seem to have been more or less beaten / aren't noticeable, which is nice. But Fear is still as intense, as it always was (or that's the way it seems).
I've been having plenty of nightmares.
Some of my nightmares have included:
- Running and hiding from my friends, since they were trying to kill me.
- Visiting one of my friends, and he had 3 tigers as pets, and they were stalking me and really looked like they wanted to eat me. I locked myself in my friend's room, and the door was banging, and the hinges started falling off, and claws were starting to come through the door.
- Getting fined / jailed for stuff I didn't do (being framed, etc.)
I also wake up most mornings feeling like I've had a nightmare (or more), but without remembering what the topic was.
I hope this is a sign that my fear is being slowly overcome.
I definitely have a LONG way to go.
