03-01-2025, 01:30 AM
Yesterday went to get some jeans, the woman in the jeans shop I usually talk to so can't report much there.
Then went into another clothes shop and made a few comments to the girl working there, and she kept talking even when I walked off a bit to look at stuff. Talked to her for atleast 10 minutes and I reakon she would have kept talking, from some stuff she said I figured she was around 20, and she expanded alot on what she said, shared personal information, but then a few times mentioned "her partner", before that I was thinking of getting her number.
But the progress from the last few I reported where I was worried I was disturbing them or distracting them from their job I stood there and talked to her for ages. Still was a little unsure but not as much. After a while I introduced myself and left.
After that when I went home I felt really tired. It may have partly been a bit of a 'pushback' response from the interaction even though it's good. What i'm seeing is for me it seems every little bit of progress I get is met with some kind of 'pushback'. It can also be partly explained by extending one of my workouts this week, but that was 3 days ago.
Last night was my first night back on PM after the rest night, 4 loops.
Today i've been feeling low. I went to go out in nature to try to relax and destress. I was struggling to wind down and relax, even when I left my phone in my car. The tiredness continues today and feeling depressed. Actually alot of the feeling down started when I was outside and frustrated at doing this alone and wanting someone to share it with.
It also seems when I go back down to 4 loops I start to feel like shit again, so tonight i've set it up for 8 loops again.
The other things with my energy could be resistance or sabotage, in that earlier in the week I was thinking about how it's good my energy is noticably better and more consistent, and i've been getting up earlier without much effort. Now the last few days this tiredness, kind of matches the pattern of what happens when I notice things like this in that something tries to sabotage it.
Also when driving home today, I started to get into a mental mood as I used to call it. This matches what used to happen when I was younger, i'd just get into this weird mood and be really silly or random. I was singing stuff while driving home and being weird, but it was fun. This isn't something I remember happening for a long time, i'm not sure why. It seemed like I didn't really relax at all going out into nature, but maybe I did a bit and that's why that come out.
With how i've been feeling today, it's been difficult not to switch to OGSF v3. When I read the page it just feels like something I should use, but with a bit over 3 weeks left until the 3 month mark which I committed to I realized that I have to stick to it to prove I can stick to the commitment. If I don't then it makes it easier to stop OGSF v3 at the 2 month mark for example instead of finishing.
It's still hard to know at times if these things are resistance, which I know is happening now at the moment.. or if it is legit that OGSF v3 is best for me right now, especially with the increase in technology.. which also even with resistance sometimes can legitimately be the case.
Actually the resistance i'm hitting upon now is "I don't even want this goal anymore". Which isn't true, I do want the goal of being Masculine and reaching my potential as a man.
Reading the types of resistance thread, lets see what applies right now.
Type 3: Agitation And Upset.
Type 6: Running Away.
Then went into another clothes shop and made a few comments to the girl working there, and she kept talking even when I walked off a bit to look at stuff. Talked to her for atleast 10 minutes and I reakon she would have kept talking, from some stuff she said I figured she was around 20, and she expanded alot on what she said, shared personal information, but then a few times mentioned "her partner", before that I was thinking of getting her number.
But the progress from the last few I reported where I was worried I was disturbing them or distracting them from their job I stood there and talked to her for ages. Still was a little unsure but not as much. After a while I introduced myself and left.
After that when I went home I felt really tired. It may have partly been a bit of a 'pushback' response from the interaction even though it's good. What i'm seeing is for me it seems every little bit of progress I get is met with some kind of 'pushback'. It can also be partly explained by extending one of my workouts this week, but that was 3 days ago.
Last night was my first night back on PM after the rest night, 4 loops.
Today i've been feeling low. I went to go out in nature to try to relax and destress. I was struggling to wind down and relax, even when I left my phone in my car. The tiredness continues today and feeling depressed. Actually alot of the feeling down started when I was outside and frustrated at doing this alone and wanting someone to share it with.
It also seems when I go back down to 4 loops I start to feel like shit again, so tonight i've set it up for 8 loops again.
The other things with my energy could be resistance or sabotage, in that earlier in the week I was thinking about how it's good my energy is noticably better and more consistent, and i've been getting up earlier without much effort. Now the last few days this tiredness, kind of matches the pattern of what happens when I notice things like this in that something tries to sabotage it.
Also when driving home today, I started to get into a mental mood as I used to call it. This matches what used to happen when I was younger, i'd just get into this weird mood and be really silly or random. I was singing stuff while driving home and being weird, but it was fun. This isn't something I remember happening for a long time, i'm not sure why. It seemed like I didn't really relax at all going out into nature, but maybe I did a bit and that's why that come out.
With how i've been feeling today, it's been difficult not to switch to OGSF v3. When I read the page it just feels like something I should use, but with a bit over 3 weeks left until the 3 month mark which I committed to I realized that I have to stick to it to prove I can stick to the commitment. If I don't then it makes it easier to stop OGSF v3 at the 2 month mark for example instead of finishing.
It's still hard to know at times if these things are resistance, which I know is happening now at the moment.. or if it is legit that OGSF v3 is best for me right now, especially with the increase in technology.. which also even with resistance sometimes can legitimately be the case.
Actually the resistance i'm hitting upon now is "I don't even want this goal anymore". Which isn't true, I do want the goal of being Masculine and reaching my potential as a man.
Reading the types of resistance thread, lets see what applies right now.
Type 3: Agitation And Upset.
Type 6: Running Away.
