02-23-2025, 06:34 PM
I feel much better today.
Last night I was on the edge of giving up. I had pretty much decided to stop PM, then something come to my mind all of a sudden.. when I had decided to take last night off listening earlier in the day, before bed I had the strong urge to put PM on and to do TEN loops, yes. I went with it and thought "Well if this doesn't do anything I may aswell just give up".
I woke up feeling noticably better, and I was thinking about stuff from early highschool in my friendship group and around some girls. So if it's going back to that it seems to be going deeper and further back hopefully.
I did my workout and a few other things before even going on the computer at 1pm which is good.
Also less interest in randomly looking at social media again, I just briefly looked at a training group and haven't gone to other groups reading all the nonsense. I also don't really feel too much like playing the game i've been playing and want to, and to do a few other things that I kept putting off.
So the 10 loops did finally kick something back in again, though it seems like a crazy amount and i'm even having urges to go higher. Shannon has said to follow these urges, but i'm questioning the urge due to the high amount. Still, following the urge for 10 last night did pay off.
Last night I was on the edge of giving up. I had pretty much decided to stop PM, then something come to my mind all of a sudden.. when I had decided to take last night off listening earlier in the day, before bed I had the strong urge to put PM on and to do TEN loops, yes. I went with it and thought "Well if this doesn't do anything I may aswell just give up".
I woke up feeling noticably better, and I was thinking about stuff from early highschool in my friendship group and around some girls. So if it's going back to that it seems to be going deeper and further back hopefully.
I did my workout and a few other things before even going on the computer at 1pm which is good.
Also less interest in randomly looking at social media again, I just briefly looked at a training group and haven't gone to other groups reading all the nonsense. I also don't really feel too much like playing the game i've been playing and want to, and to do a few other things that I kept putting off.
So the 10 loops did finally kick something back in again, though it seems like a crazy amount and i'm even having urges to go higher. Shannon has said to follow these urges, but i'm questioning the urge due to the high amount. Still, following the urge for 10 last night did pay off.
