I went to a psychic market thing today and it was interesting.
There was this attractive woman at one of the stands who I was talking to, I brought something and she gave me a $6 discount which never happens to me. Then some other people were there so I said "you better serve them". She said to me "come back and see and talk to me later" and gave me a suggestive eyebrow raise.
Another woman smiled at me who was walking past, I thought of talking to her then she was obviously there with her husband, oh well.
I sat down on a couch and a guy come and talked to me, turns out i've met him ages ago but I didn't realize until he said. Then an old woman started talking to me, a kid walked past and smiled at me. This stuff doesn't usually happen. A woman and her daughter sat down on a seat near me and I talked to them, and the guy at the ticket table joined in. I was basically in the flow and started to get a feeling of swagger kind of.
Then I went to the supermarket to get a drink. The cute girl who served me was really happy and bubbly, which I don't remember from the past and she happily engaged with me.
Then after that I fucking started to shut down, kind of like a "this is too good" response. I wanted to go back to the market to talk to the woman on the stand as she was definately keen. I went back in and there was a few more attractive girls and I started to shut down and feel really anxious. Enough that I just had to leave.
I was pissed off because I felt so comfortable, good and in the flow before that. It was definately some kind of fear response.
I decided to go home and put a loop of PM on. I'm feeling more relaxed nearly at the end of the loop, partly from listening but also likely partly that i'm at home now. I was thinking of going back to talk to her, as I have to go out again since I forgot to get something for dinner tonight. I think I feel relaxed again, but i'll see when I go out again.
I'm just mentioning some of this to Shannon. In that on AM I was moody, aggressive, glaring at people, antisocial. Some more people probably did talk to me but alot were intimidated. On PM when it's kicking in i'm more friendly, wanting to engage with people, people talking to me.
Well so far mostly old men and the old woman today, no sexy girls yet, but it is a sign of me projecting something different atleast.
I probably mentioned one reason I was scared to use PM was I thought i'd be really moody, aggressive, glaring at people, get into tons of confrontations and arguments like on AM.. but i'm not. I'm more calm, and actually more accepting of people. Some people I just didn't really care for i've engaged with and found things I like about them that I wouldn't have before.
There was this attractive woman at one of the stands who I was talking to, I brought something and she gave me a $6 discount which never happens to me. Then some other people were there so I said "you better serve them". She said to me "come back and see and talk to me later" and gave me a suggestive eyebrow raise.
Another woman smiled at me who was walking past, I thought of talking to her then she was obviously there with her husband, oh well.
I sat down on a couch and a guy come and talked to me, turns out i've met him ages ago but I didn't realize until he said. Then an old woman started talking to me, a kid walked past and smiled at me. This stuff doesn't usually happen. A woman and her daughter sat down on a seat near me and I talked to them, and the guy at the ticket table joined in. I was basically in the flow and started to get a feeling of swagger kind of.
Then I went to the supermarket to get a drink. The cute girl who served me was really happy and bubbly, which I don't remember from the past and she happily engaged with me.
Then after that I fucking started to shut down, kind of like a "this is too good" response. I wanted to go back to the market to talk to the woman on the stand as she was definately keen. I went back in and there was a few more attractive girls and I started to shut down and feel really anxious. Enough that I just had to leave.
I was pissed off because I felt so comfortable, good and in the flow before that. It was definately some kind of fear response.
I decided to go home and put a loop of PM on. I'm feeling more relaxed nearly at the end of the loop, partly from listening but also likely partly that i'm at home now. I was thinking of going back to talk to her, as I have to go out again since I forgot to get something for dinner tonight. I think I feel relaxed again, but i'll see when I go out again.
I'm just mentioning some of this to Shannon. In that on AM I was moody, aggressive, glaring at people, antisocial. Some more people probably did talk to me but alot were intimidated. On PM when it's kicking in i'm more friendly, wanting to engage with people, people talking to me.
Well so far mostly old men and the old woman today, no sexy girls yet, but it is a sign of me projecting something different atleast.
I probably mentioned one reason I was scared to use PM was I thought i'd be really moody, aggressive, glaring at people, get into tons of confrontations and arguments like on AM.. but i'm not. I'm more calm, and actually more accepting of people. Some people I just didn't really care for i've engaged with and found things I like about them that I wouldn't have before.
