08-16-2017, 10:45 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-16-2017, 10:50 PM by Bookstacks DC737.)
I'm not sure if it's the DMSI bloom or MLS specifically but I had a good cry yesterday, twice. As weird as it sounds, I've been hoping I'd cry for a while now. It's a great emotional release and I wasn't able to do so my entire run of E2 and DMSI, almost 18 months where I was being healed.
I also had a dream last night where I was in my old middle school auditorium and I was having a shootout with a rough bunch of guys. Eventually I had to fall back and continued shooting while I ran. I caught a bullet in midair and then ran through a double door and locked it. From there I entered into another set of double doors where I could only see white light, nothing else.
It may have something to do with being bullied I suppose. I had carried those experiences with me for a long time, but there seems to be a definite lessening of those thought patters and way of seeing things. I no longer feel like a nerd and all the associations that come with it. If my unconscious was holding on to being a nerd/inferior in some way then it could only be negative for DMSI.
I also had a dream last night where I was in my old middle school auditorium and I was having a shootout with a rough bunch of guys. Eventually I had to fall back and continued shooting while I ran. I caught a bullet in midair and then ran through a double door and locked it. From there I entered into another set of double doors where I could only see white light, nothing else.
It may have something to do with being bullied I suppose. I had carried those experiences with me for a long time, but there seems to be a definite lessening of those thought patters and way of seeing things. I no longer feel like a nerd and all the associations that come with it. If my unconscious was holding on to being a nerd/inferior in some way then it could only be negative for DMSI.
