07-25-2017, 09:58 PM
day 4-5 of MLS
Did some work yesterday and finished the second course for programming, another 5 hour course I went through in like an hour. The flow state was unreal.
What I was going to type was "not much happened yesterday."
Ridiculous how easy I forget/try to sabotage my own results.
Didn't get much done today as far as my main goals of programming is concerned. Really skimmed through a bunch of material on my computer at rapid speed, not able to really sit down and focus. The material that I read was very quickly absorbed though, and "integrated," as in I understand it's implications in my life and it seems my mind is figuring out where and how to best use what I've learned.
Two interesting things happened today:
I was playing a game that's purpose is improving cognition and was having a hard time focusing, constantly thinking about all the points I was missing. A lot of perfectionism, shame, guilt and anxiety was popping up. All of a sudden, it was like my eyes and body relaxed and allowed me to really see everything that was going on, and stop taking things personally and just perform better.
The second thing was while I was skimming through random material on my laptop I had a very clear thought of "I need to think bigger," and another clear thought of "I'm scared."
So it seems a lot of clearing is taking place.
Did some work yesterday and finished the second course for programming, another 5 hour course I went through in like an hour. The flow state was unreal.
What I was going to type was "not much happened yesterday."
Ridiculous how easy I forget/try to sabotage my own results.Didn't get much done today as far as my main goals of programming is concerned. Really skimmed through a bunch of material on my computer at rapid speed, not able to really sit down and focus. The material that I read was very quickly absorbed though, and "integrated," as in I understand it's implications in my life and it seems my mind is figuring out where and how to best use what I've learned.
Two interesting things happened today:
I was playing a game that's purpose is improving cognition and was having a hard time focusing, constantly thinking about all the points I was missing. A lot of perfectionism, shame, guilt and anxiety was popping up. All of a sudden, it was like my eyes and body relaxed and allowed me to really see everything that was going on, and stop taking things personally and just perform better.
The second thing was while I was skimming through random material on my laptop I had a very clear thought of "I need to think bigger," and another clear thought of "I'm scared."
So it seems a lot of clearing is taking place.
