Life Tune Up Journal

[Zane]

The reason I chose this sub is because it deals with multiple emotional and psychological problems as compared to other subs like "OF" and "OFSG".

I know those subs are much more focused on a particular area, which makes them more powerful.

But the thing is, I am such an emotional mess that I can't seem to put my finger on what the hell is causing all these problems, and I have reached my limit. I can't solve this on my own, and if I do, I don't know how much time it's going to take.

Nine months ago, I was diagnosed with depression, and at the same time, I got "LTU". I started listening to LTU at the same time I started my medication. By day 20, I was somewhat becoming normal. I thought it was the meds, so I thought I didn't need LTU, so I stopped listening to it. But then, after a few days, things went down, and I was back to square one again. Doc changed my meds, but nothing happened. I stopped going to him and left my antidepressants, and I was having brain zaps for like 3 months.

While I was listening to LTU, I was somehow able to easily focus on my studies, and everything made sense. I thought it was the meds, but I am sure it was LTU.

There were many things I experienced during those 20 days, but that's all I can remember.

I plan to listen to this sub for 200 days. I must do this. These 6 months will decide where my life will take me.

[Bliss]

Good luck!

[Zane]

**Day 1**

Well, today I talked to my mom for a while. It was a funny conversation. Then she started cleaning her store, which was a mess for like 2 years. I helped, which seems very odd now that I think about it, because I always run from stuff like this. Also made her some tea.

Meanwhile, my younger bro—Idk how to say this—but he's behaving like a kid. He keeps poking me when I’m relaxing, which annoys me... and whenever I ask him, "What’s wrong with you?" his facial expression is something like, "I have no idea why I’m doing this." I guess my aura is affecting everyone, especially my mom. Also, my little sis poked me 2–3 times. What’s with the poking?... lol.

My appetite was good. I ate like a beast. I think it’s because 5G is kind of demanding, so it wants more brainpower. I feel some kind of stress, pressure on my brain, mostly in the frontal lobe. I took a shower 3 times, but it didn’t help.

Now this might sound kind of nasty, but I have been suffering from nasal polyp since 2012, and I have tried everything from pharma stuff to herbal and homeopathy. They did provide relief, but it was like 10%, and even that came after months of regular visits to the doc.

I clearly remember the last time I played LTU, my polyp was reduced by 40% only in 20 days. I never played LTU after that. Thought it was because of my home remedies stuff. But after stopping LTU, polyps came back and won’t leave. Now since I have been playing LTU since yesterday, I am coughing out chunks of crap which were in my sinuses. I felt some itching also, which only happens when there is some kind of healing going on. I have come to realize that this polyp of mine is some kind of energy block. It’s weird that my polyp came along with depression. I have also noticed that whenever I am in a very good mood or high (by accident, ofc), my sinuses will start cleaning up. So I guess my sinuses are also in need of LTU.

I guess there is a bit of MHS 5G in LTU...

That’s all for today. Let’s see what happens tomorrow.

[Zane]

**Day 2**

Well, it seems that when I am listening to LTU, time seems to fly.

So I woke up, had some tea, and found out my cat was about to give birth to kittens.

While all this was happening, I was browsing pages on FB and downloaded some philosophical quotes. I was also watching videos about new gadgets and stuff from Futurism. I downloaded some of them and sent them to everyone on WhatsApp. Also, a psychic called and warned my mom that someone is doing voodoo magic on me (I know it’s hocus-pocus stuff, but bear with me). It didn’t bother me because I already prepared myself in advance for these kinds of attacks and situations—be it demons, negative energies, or emotional detox, resistance, etc.

A few moments ago, I saw a hot pic of a random girl in the Google Images section while I was browsing for stuff. I felt a sudden sexual urge. But it wasn’t only physical attraction; I also wanted an emotional one.

Feeling somewhat mentally tired, but not that much.

[DisneylandUSA]

Day 2

Well it seems that when I am listening LTU. Time seems to fly.

So I woke up, had some tea. Found out my cat was about to give birth to kittens.

While all this was happening I was browsing pages on fb and download some philosophical quotes and was also watching videos about new gadgets and stuff from Futurism. I downloaded some of them and sent them to everyone on whatsapp. Also a psychic called and warned my mom that someone is doing voodoo magic on me(I know its hokus pokus stuff but bare with me).It didnt bother me cause I already prepared myself in advance for these kind attacks and situations,be it (Demon,Negative energies or emotional detox, resistance etc).

Few moments ago I saw Hot pic of a random girl in google images section while I was browsing for stuff. I felt a sudden sexual urge. But it wasnt only physical attraction but I also wanted an emotional one.

Feeling somewhat mentally tired but not that much.

Congrats on your experience with LTU. You may not get any sleep with the delivery of new Kittens. If feeling down emotionally, you may want to get outside and get some Sunshine; Ocean air is therapeutic. Keep us informed about your LTU subliminal experiences. :angel:

[Zane]

Day 10

Seriously I dont know how to say this but...

There is this one fucking bastard I hate so much. I swear if it wasnt for my niece I would have killed him last night..This Guy owns a jewellery shop small one which was started by his father and I swear this guy has done nothing productive in last 45 years...He is just a fucking arrogant consumer and a MAN-BOY..

This guy has PIED. He fucking cant even satisfy his wife. She is a good looking woman and all this fucking bastard does is watch some "weird japanese porn" in which girls have three TITS..
Seriously I dont even wanna Google if there are girls with "THREE TITS". HE is sick. ...Why doesnt he FUCK a cow they have "Four TITS"...This guy doesnt even know incognito feature on Chrome. Whenever I open his Chrome browser all I see is " THREE TITS GIRLS". Its like his homepage and when ask him WTF is this ,his reply" My sister is a porn addict". Shame on him. He hides his addiction,wont admit it and in the end blames on his 18 years old sister..FUCK HIM.


HE is a fucking consumer. My whole family hates him. He has a 7 year old son and all he feeds him is this crap junk food and he doesn't even teach him any manners..

Also he recently had a really big loss in his jewellery business and yet it has no effect on him...

His wife(my cousin) crys in front of my mom everytime cause this fucking MANBOY cant satisfy her. Which makes her feel that she isnt beautiful and good enough..

He smells weird, wears weird, walks weird, talks weird...I just wanna puke on him. He usually comes and sleeps in my room cause my room is clean and tidy. Idk what kind of body odour this guy has but when he is gone my pillows and bedsheets smell like shit...SMELLS LIKE CORPSES of DEAD SPERM. As if he was fapping all night and then just slept in his own mess...Man I tell u my CAT is 1000% much better than him.

I hope this is just a phase from LTU...FUCK HIM.

Update: Just had a debate with him and I won. Won't bother me ever again.

[Zane]

**Day 13**

I am feeling so impulsive and making irrational decisions. But as soon as the impulsiveness goes away, I undo all the stuff I did. It’s really strange that yesterday I was feeling so calm and peaceful, but today it's just the opposite. Also, my sinuses weren't bothering me, but today they are, and my throat is also kinda itchy. I am having stomach pain and it won't go away no matter what I do—and it's 3 AM already. I think I am going through some kind of "Physical Resistance."

Anyway, I never expected this "LTU" journey to be easy. I mean, I have had all these negative and unwanted beliefs for the past 20 years, so I can't expect it to be that easy. There will be ups and downs in this journey, which is a proof that it's working... because resistance always comes up when you are busy improving yourself.

[Zane]

**Update: Day 13**

My mom said something about my younger brother—how motivated he is to achieve his goals and how successful he is. Just hearing about this made me feel very sad. I was once like him 9 years ago, full of dreams. But things happened, and here I am, sitting at home doing nothing. People think that I am like this because I love being lazy. No!! I don't want to be like this. It's just that I am "psychologically paralyzed." I want to do things, but I can't. Feels like crying, but I can't.

Logically, I know it’s going to get better, but sometimes you have to forget all that so that you can experience your emotions without any judgments.

**Self Note:**
Removed: Amethyst, Rose Quartz
Wore: Green Fluorite, White Tiger (Sulaimani)
Feeling: High

[Zane]

**Day 16**

Well, for the past two days, I don’t know what has gotten into me. I have been reading about the stock market like crazy. I seriously don’t even remember how it all started. I’ve been watching stocks doing their ups and downs for the past two days.

I spent about 16 hours just reading articles about it and trying to understand how it works. I know it’s not that easy, but... I don’t know what’s happening. It’s like a game... you can play it for life. A dangerous game. Btw, don’t worry, I haven’t invested any money into it.

Seriously, I have no idea what’s going on...

**Update:** I seriously don’t know why I’m into this stock stuff. I don’t even know the basics yet. I guess it’s some kind of phase from LTU. Let’s see where all this takes me... This never happened before.

I must be out of my mind.

[4Kingdoms]

Zane, When I read your LTU journal and compare it to other LTU journals...
I think of the answer Shannon gave to this question:
"How similar would two people who have done the exact same programs be?"
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8065-p...#pid136645

How similar would two colors be if you added two of the same other colors to them?

Depends on which colors they were when you started adding colors, and what colors you add.

Except, with a person, you have potentials being expressed ether as positive or negative poles, which is either learned or by choice.

The subconscious isn't even something we can clearly define yet without argument. Neither is "personality".

Chart placements don't change the personality, they map the personality and it's potentials for expression.

[Zane]

**Day 20**

The past few days, my sleep timing is kind of messed up. I really don’t know how to describe the emotional changes I am going through. It’s getting better slowly but surely. Also, I am noticing that I sometimes have dreams that represent "fear," but I can’t seem to remember them.

I am also noticing that I am becoming somewhat emotionally stable. I can rationalize in the moment, but I’m not sure if it’s the sleep cycle or what. I find nights more comfortable than daytime. I’ll sleep at 6 am and wake up at 10 am. Then, I’ll sleep again at 2 pm and wake up at 6 pm... and I’ll be awake all night. Maybe the sub is also working like ADs. I was on them for 7 months, and they did the exact same thing. But the sub is doing a much better job. Also, time seems to go slow.

Life is getting better... Or maybe I’m learning to survive in this "hell."

[Zane]

**Day 29**

Had an argument with my brother. I started it, but he crossed the line. He has a military-type physique, so he pushed me once while we were arguing. Although he used some abusive language...

While all this was going on, I was just watching him like an observer, and I really could see how out of control he was. He wasn’t listening to my mom, my sister, or anyone. He was just shouting, calling me lazy, unproductive, useless, and a burden on our parents.

I didn’t feel the impact when he said those things during the argument, but now, when I think about it, it kinda hurts a little. What he said was true. I am lazy, unproductive, and a burden on my parents. I’ve always known it. I won’t deny it. I accept it...

I won’t bother talking to him anymore.

Well, I guess I don’t feel like typing much more... Overall, everything’s okay. Life’s getting better. I am growing emotionally...

I went to the doctor yesterday for my nasal issues. He gave me some meds, and I’m feeling better.

**Note:** Fluorite