05-08-2014, 11:04 PM
Day 70: Feels like I hit a plateau again. So far the things that have stayed permanent with LTU in me is the fear of death never comes to mind anymore, and if it ever does it doesn't bother me. Overall feeling better in life, not to the point where I am extremely happy, but it's an improvement. I get less angry or impatient with things. I don't feel like I'm "Faking" it as much, negative things either slip by me and I don't notice them, or I let them go.. and sometimes I confront them. However I don't let them stay attached to me, or fake a smile, atleast this has been reduced by 70% I'd say. 20 days away from the 3 month mark. People have been recommending me to stay for 6 months, but damn am I ever excited or wanting to get into AM, or a learning sub. I have a HUGE procastination problem, so I'm not sure how well the learning subs are going to work. Jonathan if you're reading this, I too suffer from the same procastination problem and that's why I'm now kinda hesitant about starting a learning sub. I have been reading your journal. For me, if I start a learning sub, I'll do some sort of procastination sub along with it. It's a must.
