Life Tune Up 3.1 Journal

[lokko]

Day 48: I woke up this morning realizing I didn't have the subs on reply loop. So I started the subs and went back to sleep and I had lots of dreams. The dreams were trying to show me a path, that every action I take has a reaction. I figured in my dream all the paths I didn't want to take, and overcame some fears of being stuck in those paths. Everything was in a little bit slower in motion so not only was I thinking in the dream, I was also living as if it was a non lucid dream. To describe it better, it was as if I was re running a scene and I was in third person and narrating the dream, that ability was giving me helpful tips, put me into realization mode. It was awesome. I woke up feeling better. I realized all the fears I have overcome with this sub. The fear of dying has gone down 90%. The guilt and shame I had about sex and premature ejaculation went down 50%. I have become more careless about things that would hurt me, I just don't take those paths, I take paths I'm in control of. Haven't hit a plateu after all. However in the back of my head I still want to start MLS sub as soon as I can.