Day 43: What a fucking day...got pulled over for speeding. hate that shit. Especially since it was on my way to pick up a girl for a date. It just tells me I'm cursed or some shit when it comes to dating. Anyway, it started off well, we went to a restaurant, she was a bit shy but she opened up, convo got to sex and she's only had 3 guys blah blah. We ended up making out at the end of the night. I didn't wanna go far on the first date, I woulda came fast. When I was on my way home, I was self sabotaging myself saying why an I going for easy girls, why cant I get a girl to date..who I would love instead of lust. That type of shit. I don't want to lust or use girls anymore I wanna feel something like I did with my ex which was more then 4 years ago..
update: Just got off the phone with a chick I'm more into..and heres my luck..she hung up on me..I came off rude I guess. "Honestly, you're so rude and ignorant you clearly don't think before you speak especially for someone who you dont even know learn some respect, for someone who's 23 you should know better but guess not some people clearly never grow up. For what it's worth, it was nice talking to you but I guarantee you I won't ever meet you after speaking to you tonight. So have a good night take care." wow...I seriously don't understand...the girls who I really want play this game of wanting me to be a "nice guy"..I wasn't even trying to be rude.
update: Just got off the phone with a chick I'm more into..and heres my luck..she hung up on me..I came off rude I guess. "Honestly, you're so rude and ignorant you clearly don't think before you speak especially for someone who you dont even know learn some respect, for someone who's 23 you should know better but guess not some people clearly never grow up. For what it's worth, it was nice talking to you but I guarantee you I won't ever meet you after speaking to you tonight. So have a good night take care." wow...I seriously don't understand...the girls who I really want play this game of wanting me to be a "nice guy"..I wasn't even trying to be rude.
