Life Tune Up 3.1 Journal

[rayrocanaldo]

Yeah if there is no purpose of you playing video games other then wasting time..then guess what we're doing? Wasting time! we could use the time for better things.

For sure but for me, even if I use my time for better things, I still am not consistent with them and I revert back extremely quickly. I don't even last 2 days in most cases.
The issue for me is I have a block to my emotions. I don't feel my feelings properly. I am blocked. I used the lefkoe method once and that blocked disappeared and I finally felt my feelings for the FIRST TIME ! I felt so good because when the block was gone I felt like something was different.

I couldn't point my fingers on it until I truly felt what worry feels like. But then, I worried so much that the block came back and hasn't left since. Worrying FEELS HORRIBLE. Negative thoughts feel HORRIBLE. It's NOT GOOD at all ! But I wasn't in touch with it.

When you have a block like this it's like negativity is just that negative thoughts in the head with somewhat of a negative feeling. But get rid of the block and it feels INCREDIBLY BAD ! Without this block, I felt extremely bored too. It was like the block was blocking me from feeling this. My life is VERY BORING but I don't feel it cause of this block. I also felt like I can be very consistent with doing better things without this block. This block also causes me to feel very bad feelings inside most of the time that I stopped feeling when it was gone.
But I do know that I'll be able to remove it again soon by next month.

[lokko]

subs and other methods can help with this block but in the end it's Your decision to end this block at will. The next time you feel this block, just stop what you're doing and ask yourself, Can I control my habit, if yes, when, and tell yourself now, then do so. Stop your patterns consciously by asking yourself these questions. If anything comes up while asking these questions then ask yourself what it is, when you find it, ask yourself to let it go, keep doing this till you finally feel the block dissapear. These "blocks" will reveal itself when you keep asking yourself questions when you feel resistance.

[rayrocanaldo]

subs are not going to help with this block.

It's actually not a sub I am going to use to get rid of it. I think I have a solution of my own creation. It's a much broader solution that also encompasses this block & many other things. An interesting way of applying affirmations to so that it gets rid of it.

Your decision to end this block will. The next time you feel this block, just stop what you're doing and ask yourself, Can I control my habit, if yes, when, and if now, then do so. Stop your patterns consciously by asking yourself these questions. If anything comes up while asking these questions then ask yourself what it is, when you find it, ask yourself to let it go, keep doing this till you finally feel the block dissapear.

It's something I feel all the time. It's a mixture of a block and a bunch of negative emotions underneath it. It's actually emotional issues & negative beliefs together that forms this. I also have an emotion of sadness stuck in the pit of my stomach since forever. I am always feeling it too. What I truly need is releasing of all these trapped feelings, negative beliefs & emotional issues. That's the core of what everyone needs I believe. Especially when starting out this journey of self-growth.

[lokko]

I edited my post a bit. Your brain is on auto pilot when it comes to this issue. Read what you just replied to me, and take conscious notes on how you make this belief of yours stronger that you have this block.

Keywords "I feel all the time". instead of that say, "I let myself feel like this all the time" say "it's a mixture of things I tell myself to make myself believe it's true because I feel something in my stomach.

heres another auto pilot thing you said "everyone needs I believe" so since you don't understand yourself, the truth must be what everyone else says about you. Look at what you tell yourself. You do this to yourself, but it's time to let it go.

Bring up all the things you keep telling yourself an tell yourself I let them go without any excuses, reasons or beliefs and if anything comes up to try to help me resist this feeling of letting go then I only take notice og it and let that go too."


you're about to witness how those trapped feelings in your stomach reveal itself and disappear as you breathe in and out.

[rayrocanaldo]

I edited my post a bit. Your brain is on auto pilot when it comes to this issue. Read what you just replied to me, and take conscious notes on how you make this belief of yours stronger that you have this block.

Keywords "I feel all the time". instead of that say, "I let myself feel like this all the time" say "it's a mixture of things I tell myself to make myself believe it's true because I feel something in my stomach.

heres another auto pilot thing you said "everyone needs I believe" so since you don't understand yourself, the truth must be what everyone else says about you. Look at what you tell yourself. You do this to yourself, but it's time to let it go.

Bring up all the things you keep telling yourself an tell yourself I let them go without any excuses, reasons or beliefs and if anything comes up to try to help me resist this feeling of letting go then I only take notice og it and let that go too."


you're about to witness how those trapped feelings in your stomach reveal itself and disappear as you breathe in and out.

I genuinely appreciate you challenging what I am doing. You are interesting. I've seen these solutions but I don't want to apply them. Personally, I have my solution and I am going to apply it at the end of the month specifically because I am experimenting on something right now. Genuinely Thanks though.

I gave you rep points for being honest & straightforward with me.

[rayrocanaldo]

I believe the solution is to permenantly remove all of fears, guilt, shame, worries, doubts, anger, sadness frustration & all other negative feelings.

As well as all of negative self-beliefs, negative people beliefs, negative life beliefs, negative world beliefs, survival strategies, ways of coping with negative beliefs, impossibilities, judgments, criticism, limitations, restrictions, all low-vibration thoughts & beliefs, all negative thought seeds & , all other negativity known and unknown permenantly

With these gone, that's when the real growth can take place. I have my way of getting rid of all of it at once.

[lokko]

if you believe that then it must be true, you're the only person who knows yourself better then anyone else. Focus on entirely on what you believe it is and you'll let the block disappear.

[lokko]

update for today: I can't stand this chick again. She's like a devil. She's so nice to everyone that has power over her or that's been working at the restaurant for a long time, yet she is so rude to me or anyone new. Mostly to me cause she came to my house and gave my friend a bj...which I don't really care about but I think she regrets that night and hates me for it to cause I'm the one who asked her to come over. I thought she'd bring girlfriends over but she didn't. She's still a power tripper tho, she's an angel to other ppl but if you try taking a role in one of her job duties, she'll make sure your treated like shit. I really want to start AM so soon because of this.

[lokko]

Day 80: My day at work started off with a guest treating me like hell because they were seated in the wrong section, and weren't served for 15 minutes supposedly, and before they got seated we told them the table they were going to seat at had a reservation so they had to finish before 6 if they wanted to sit there and they agreed, but were still butthurt about it and took it out all on me. He literly cursed at me and what not in a threatning way, but I tried my best to remain calm and collected and did, and then the chick who I can't was putting it all on me I finally couldn't take it anymore today, I called her out on her shit. She was being rude to me again just cause I may have made a mistake, not sure still if it was really my mistake or not but I took the blame anyway and just called her out on being disrespectful and rude. I looked right at her infront of everyone and said "You're really rude and the most disrespectful person I met at a restaurant" she replied "I don't care" I looked at her and said "YOU DON'T CARE?" and ended it. I then had to do another job position I had to do because somebody didn't show up, so I didn't up end working with her tonight so I tapped on my anger, and so on. Cleared it up pretty well and everything went fine.

[lokko]

Day 81: I felt really emotional after waking up from a long nap. A feeling of lonliness, it may have been because I don't have anyone to love. It was there for a good half an hour and then disappeared. Back in the day it would stay with me for a long time and I wouldn't get over it. This is an improvement, I just hope I don't feel soulless though haha

[ffaux]

Do you believe feeling lonely is necessary to not feel soulless?

[Joronda]

You are going through a big transition, so it is not essential you hook up with Miss Right at this stage, coz she might just be a stepping stone transition as well - that you may need to flick off when you outgrow her.

The right girl will step into your life, and won't play mind games with you. You/her will "feel right" for each other, no battles, no jumping through hoops, just want to spend a lot of time together.

There is a lot of merit in playing the field, nothing serious, just doing things that feel fun, talking to lots of women without calling it a date.

[lokko]

Do you believe feeling lonely is necessary to not feel soulless?

I believe rejection can cause lonlieness, if I reject everyone, or reject feelings too easily, I might start to feel soulless, by being careless and emotionless and next time you see a post of mine you won't see the word "feel" anymore. That's what I "believe" would happen.

[lokko]

You are going through a big transition, so it is not essential you hook up with Miss Right at this stage, coz she might just be a stepping stone transition as well - that you may need to flick off when you outgrow her.

The right girl will step into your life, and won't play mind games with you. You/her will "feel right" for each other, no battles, no jumping through hoops, just want to spend a lot of time together.

There is a lot of merit in playing the field, nothing serious, just doing things that feel fun, talking to lots of women without calling it a date.

That right girl will come to me when I'm ready, which is why I have officially moved on from this sub as of yesterday. I have started AM5 Today. I think it's the perfect time. See my testimonial on LTU I will be posting soon.