09-09-2016, 05:25 AM
Day 5, 1 + 5 loops
I went my to my university to get some paperwork done today. I was completely ghosted all the way there and back. Even within the university I went unnoticeable . Except the 3 people I spoke to.
The first person I spoke to was my faculty's secretary, a ~45 year old woman, who lit up when she saw me and started playfully bantering with me claiming that I am definitely not the guy on my ID's picture and she can't get me the papers I wanted. I remained calm and went along with it saying I have changed a lot the last few years. With the corner of my eye I saw her assistant at the end room smiling towards us for being playful. After I got my papers I thanked her and she said goodbye with a big, genuine smile.
On my way back, I stopped to get some photographs for my driving license and out of nowhere and with no effort I had gotten into a conversation with the photographer and he seemed really at ease with me and went on and on talking...
The third person I spoke to was when I grabbed something to eat just right before I got home. I ordered and sat down when out of nowhere the owner of the place, who took my order, says "What would you do in that case?". I say "What do you mean?", and he went on explain how an old would go and sit at one of the shop's tables without ordering anything. Later he explained how he has repeatedly asked him to leave I said "Yeah it's bad. I'd love to be sitting at that table to get some fresh air." and he replied "OK, I will ask him to leave so you can sit.".
It seems like I have to start something and the other people will get it going?
Still feeling a little insecure about C. and it messes with my well-being.
I will probably go to bar alone tonight, see how it goes.
I went my to my university to get some paperwork done today. I was completely ghosted all the way there and back. Even within the university I went unnoticeable . Except the 3 people I spoke to.
The first person I spoke to was my faculty's secretary, a ~45 year old woman, who lit up when she saw me and started playfully bantering with me claiming that I am definitely not the guy on my ID's picture and she can't get me the papers I wanted. I remained calm and went along with it saying I have changed a lot the last few years. With the corner of my eye I saw her assistant at the end room smiling towards us for being playful. After I got my papers I thanked her and she said goodbye with a big, genuine smile.
On my way back, I stopped to get some photographs for my driving license and out of nowhere and with no effort I had gotten into a conversation with the photographer and he seemed really at ease with me and went on and on talking...
The third person I spoke to was when I grabbed something to eat just right before I got home. I ordered and sat down when out of nowhere the owner of the place, who took my order, says "What would you do in that case?". I say "What do you mean?", and he went on explain how an old would go and sit at one of the shop's tables without ordering anything. Later he explained how he has repeatedly asked him to leave I said "Yeah it's bad. I'd love to be sitting at that table to get some fresh air." and he replied "OK, I will ask him to leave so you can sit.".
It seems like I have to start something and the other people will get it going?
Still feeling a little insecure about C. and it messes with my well-being.
I will probably go to bar alone tonight, see how it goes.
